Random. .

I used to update my blog everyday.But now I'm just getting lady to do so.I had alot of thoughts to share, words that I can't explain, feeling that I can't express. Sometimes I wanna write in my blog, just somehow I don't feel like turning on my laptop to write on blog eventhough I online everyday, I just..being lazy..
Gahh..have to cut off this lazyness!
Well, it's going to be the end of 2013, and a new year will come after.
And I'm graduate! Half graduate as my result not yet out, I still can't assure that I will pass my moral.Thanks to my friends who keep on mention that this subject is difficult.
Still, a new long term working life is waiting for me.This time, no more part time job, is a permanent full time job! Unless I found my white horse prince and get married,or else I will be stick on the office chair from 9-5! ! God! What a life..
Ok . Short update here . It's now 4.39am and I shall on my bed now. Good night~♥

无题。。

我想。。恋爱了。。
最近，正享受着暧昧的感觉。
可是，暧昧久了，那以前喜欢你的感觉，又再一次地出现了。。
你为人，很好，很癫，爱开玩笑，根本就是符合我要的条件，但是。。姐弟恋，这块东西，我不碰。。
可惜，我们没缘份。。

PS:暧昧让人受尽委屈。。

都市的爱情

 刚游览一些所谓的都市名媛，察觉到了一件事情。现在的都市爱情，就是不愁你没人要，只要你长得稍微好看，自然而然会有人送上门。现代的都市爱情，再也称不上是爱情了。因为每个情侣们，不是因为爱，而在一起，是因为他们需要的那份安全感，因为性而在一起。有一位名媛，刚和男朋友分手不久，就已经有了新的一个。才分手的不久，才交往的不久，就已经谈什么天长地久，离不开你，可笑可笑。交往的时候，po上网说什么你就是我这一辈子的爱，好让全世界的人都知道你们很恩爱。分手的时候，什么也不发表，过了不久，就有新的恋情了。我想说的是，至你们，不要因为缺乏的那份安全感而走在一起。没错，女人是需要男人保护，男人爱戴。但如果谨谨是因为那份安全感，没有爱情，而在一起，值得吗？我们也能保护自己，因为爱而谈恋爱，因为恨而分开，不要为了晒出你们的爱情，而在一起。我只能说，你们的爱情，真的很可悲。现代的爱情，女人就好像换鞋子一样，快又准。而男人就好像换衣服一样，一次就扔。
妈问我，为什么现在有钱的男人都不结婚，这样好吗？我答，为什么要结婚？当你有能力养活自己的时候，何必需要其他人？妈又问，哪老的时候怎么办？我答，就用钱请人照顾就好啦。妈说，总得要有个家，有孩子才热闹嘛！一个人，闷闷的。。或许妈说的没错，只是她不知道，现在没有长久的爱情了。结婚十年，离婚十年，没有人相信爱情了。现代的人，宁选着面包，也不会死死守护着爱情了。因为面包比爱情坚持得更久。。


可悲的都市人。。

今天，我想说一个故事，一个我没有告诉别人的故事。
从前，我有两个引以为傲的哥哥。大哥是个厨师，二哥是个律师。大哥做事鲁莽，永远不会想后果。二哥做事谨慎，我们从来不会担心他。但如今，我只能说，我，只有一个哥哥，那就是二哥。大哥早在他犯下大错之后，再也不是我哥了。我很偏心。以前我很疼我大哥，但现在，我只能说他只是一个熟悉的陌生人。
我永远不会忘记他说的那一番话，他做过的那件事，他如何用言语伤害我和二哥，用行动伤害我爸妈！直到我死，我也不会忘记！
你永远没有资格教训我，没有资格在我面前提起孝顺这两个字，没有资格教我如何走未来的路，没有资格管我，因为你没有一点值得我尊敬！我以前的那个大哥，已经死了。现在的那个人，我不认识。我也不想去了解。
你传给我的那些简讯，我会收着。一辈子收着。你说过的话，我会记住。一辈子记住。我会用我这一辈子提醒我自己，我只有一个哥。
故事完毕。
晚安。。

迷路了。。

我的人生好像有很多可惜。我有梦想,我知道我要什么,我知道未来我要怎样,但在你仔细地分析后,你会犹豫,失去方向,而现在我真的不知该怎么样。朋友说,跟着你的心走吧,但现在我的心也迷路了。
有没有人可以告诉我怎么样。。我不想去想了。。

First Time Organiser...

As what people always say,you work for a company as a intern,you were more likely a cheap labor.Meanwhile,you have to do alot of things.Especially when you are in event line,basically,from production till ticketing,marketing,A&P,you need to do all by yourself.As for me,I would not said when Lee Min Ho came Malaysia for his concert would be a disaster for me,but it did torture me from my mental to my soul!You know what?Organizing a concert is not same as organizing a corporate event.Artist is more important than those datuk peoples.One mistake you did,you are finish!Korean artist is not as easy as other country artist.Korean peoples are very typical Korean!Meaning,if they want something from you in a minute time,by hook or crook,you have to get them in a minute time!More than one minute,they will started to shout at you with their alien language.Towards Asian people like us who can't speak Korean but English,they don't even bother to talk to you.They can mix well with our translator as they are Korean but when come to us,they are like...you know?As what my boss said,when facing Asian,everything you say is NO from them,but for Mat Salleh,everything YES YES YES!

Back to my point,when Lee Min Ho came,well,is a good experience for me thou as I'm one of the organiser for his concert.I was so looking forward for his arrival,but the moment he step in Malaysia,there is where my nightmare begin.Everyday slept for three hours,don't have a proper meal,worked like for hell during his stay,communication consider ok as I speak a little Korean with their crew,run here and there during his exclusive interview,I'm more like participating in Running Man show than working there.I really salute with my short leg that had been exercising continuously without any break.

The worst thing during this event I think is when I already tired like hell,back to hotel just want to have a good rest and then here come my colleague snoring sound!Loud and clear!At that moment,cry no tears!T___T

Lee Min Ho,well,he is quite good looking and tall.But he can't sing.When I was busy walking around during his concert,suddenly I hear his voice is like OUT-OF-TUNE!aigoo....Whatever!I guess his fans wouldn't bother much either..And he smokes!A heavy smoker with all his crews!aiks...

Some of Korean crews is nice thou,when I at backstage to look out for them,some very funny and some quite good looking.There's a guy name David,holy shit!He looks like Park Si Hoo!My GOD!But he don't work for them,he is a intermediary person,a Korean,worked in Malaysia.

Overall,the moment the concert end is the moment my nightmare end.That night,I slept for 12 hours with no alarm!Feels good!

So to who ever wanna work at this line,please be prepare!Your life will be shorter!

PS:listening to Henry-Trap

突然累了。。

人老了，很多事情都不在我们意料范围之内。我也一样，曾经以为坏人是指做了伤天害理的事情，长大后，坏人其实也是指着那些暗地里在你背后搬弄是非的人。
人老了，渐渐地，从前不知道的事情，自己经历之后，才发现这个世界，没有我想的那么单纯。
有时候，我会怀念，以前懵懂的我，从不会为生活烦恼的我，从不会为了得到别人的青睐的我，逐渐地。。以前的那个我，不在了。因为我们都长大了，时间不会停留在过去。每一次，我都会说，人不能永远留在过去，一定要往未来前进。可是等我老的时候，就算一秒也好，我很想回到那个过去。无忧无虑，疯疯癫癫，快乐地过一天，那种感觉，真好！
现在，未来，还有漫长的路需要走，但是我开始累了，不想继续走了，身体累了，身心也疲劳了，有没有那么一点推动力让我继续前进？


我。。想家了。。。

Letter to a bitch named Y..

To Lady Y,

You know what?I wouldn't that angry or fire till I heard something from someone that you were actually complain about me.We two been living under the same roof for the past two years.I know sometimes I can be very annoyed especially with my loudspeaker voice.You wrote on your twitter,you told your boyfriend,I know and I tried not to be loud as possible.I'm sorry for making you feel annoy.But after these two years,I thought you already get used to it and now you complaint again?Oh GOD!Too bad you complaint to the wrong person and that person came told me the truth.When the person tried to defend me by saying there's another guy who liked to shout as well,you answered back and said HIS'S SHOUT IS FOR FUN,MY SHOUT IS ANNOYING.Seriously?Are you that dry or what?Friends who know me know my voice volume is louder than normal people including you!Just because he is a guy with a penis and you said he shout is fun?And when the person answered you back and you chose to ignore just because she side me.You really an asshole bitch wei!Can't take people comment then don't try to start off the topic,you will be the one who get the shit at last!
Second thing,I don't step on your tails and so do you.Don't make me let you get the payback in the end.I know what you've did behind your boyfriend.Step on me,screw you,bitch!
A little reminder for you,play your role well as a girlfriend and stop flirting other guy in front of us.You don't want people label you as "WHORE" right?So don't do it and mind your own business!

Sincerely,

Lady M

Sigh

I guess,I will be typing lotsa of words,complaints in this post.Lots of things,lots of stuffs,lots of thoughts that I wanted to share with you guys.Something that you may know but you don't really bother about it.So here it's goes.My new house at SS2 got break in last two weeks ago.I would call that thief smart but at the same time dumb!You smart because you choose the time when no one is at home and you break in and take your fucking slow time to steal our things.You dumb because hell on earth you stole my 5 bottle of 1.5 litre water?Seriously??Are you thirsty or what?Or do my bottle stained with gold so you steal it and thought of selling it to pawn shop?ASSHOLE!We already not in the mood and tired as we just back from work,headed to police station and all these human beings came our house at 12am to take the evidence.The point is,you take the evidence,then you told us our Malaysia technology is too SOPHISTICATED till you can't track any hand print or saliva.Great job,dude!While on the other hand,another one keep busy telling us how his son/daughter doing well in their Degree bla bla bla..Excuse me!I'm not interested in your family thing,I'm concern with my stuffs that gone missing,why you can't just listen to us and fucking carried out your duty as a police to catch the thief?USELESS!Now,two weeks has pass and yet no news about the thief case.I guess they just take it as a drama practice and basically we are the actor/actress with NO PAID.

Sigh.Next week will be the 4th week of my internship.During this three weeks,I had learnt a lot of things and basically from the book that I had read for the past few years,it did apply during my internship.

First rule,be fake.Don't reveal anything about your true self until you had watched them(colleague).First week of intern,I already can see everyone is faking their smile especially in front of the boss.The moment she left,everyone start to gossip her.Forget to mention,my boss is a lady,single and look not so young(old).You know,that typical lady boss's character best describe her.She lecture me on my second day of working.I asked her why we always bring the artist that is not so famous,she said if we do like others which bring those famous artist to Malaysia,then what's the difference between them and us?Meanwhile,she don't become the follower.She want become the leader!Do something that is unique and unexpected.Hmm...true also!
Second rule,white lies.Sometimes,you don't have to be honest.Tell some white lies that might help you to get rewards from others.No one love to hear the TRUTH.Lies can be a compliment too.I get scolded on second day because I'm too honest with the boss.At the end of the day,she throw me a lot of assignment to do.Proposal to be exact.Aiks..>.<

Now,I miss my study life.I miss how I can skip class whenever I feel lazy..But now,I'm not allow to do so..T^T
Another 10 weeks to go...Holyy!!!

PS:listening to Estranged-Linger

给你

致你,

别再对我好了,不然我会忍不住又再一次地喜欢你。你问我,为什么向我告白那么多次,我却不答应。我不答,因为我不知道你哪句是真心话,哪句是开玩笑的。那天,我们聊了很多,你说了很多你家人的事,你让我看到不同的你,成熟的你,谈起家人,你让我觉得,幸福原来很简单。我告诉你,我没有像你那么幸运,没有一个亲戚值得让我尊敬。你不语。
你告诉我,你现在只想完成读书,毕业后,找份工,再继续追求我。我不语,因为我不想谈恋爱,工作赚大钱,是我的目标,我告诉你,我要做女强人。
你让我最感动的事,是我告诉你,我饿了,你二话不说,到厨房煮了一碗面给我。那时候,我真的不知道要如何形容我的感动。
可是,怎么办?我不可能爱上你。因为。。你太好了,我配不上你。我只爱自己。。对不起。

Love is in the air~~

 

I'm kind of person that don't believe in love.I don't believe long distance relationship.I don't believe years of relationship and still counting on.I don't believe when two person in love,their love will last long even thou they'd been together for years.I don't believe that two person will loved each other till one of them had gone to heaven.I don't believe two person in love and can't live without one another.And by love,I mean girl and boy that type of relationship.But somehow,I do believe one day I will meet my Mr.Right,we might love at first sight,or our love grow from friends to lovers, or he might one of my stalker(just kidding),somehow,somewhere,sometime,I will meet him.God knows when.

One day,when I'm in love,I will make sure the love that I give to that particular person,he will receive it without any pay back.Because I believe,there's always one person have to sacrifice in order to make a relationship last forever.

And when we grow old,either me or he will leave the world.I hope I'm the one who leave first,because I don't want to suffer the pain of missing him and the memory that we once had together,become a memory that I owed by myself,alone.


PS:the above post is randomly written by the author with full of love.Simply ignore her as something went wrong in her brain.
PPS:listening to Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat-Lucky

一个人的世界

一个人,没有什么不好。但一个人久了,就会想热闹。
两个人,还好。但两个人久了,就会厌倦。
三个人,刚好。但三个人久了,就会离彼此更远。
很多人,太好。但太多人在一起久了,就会想自由。
所以,还是一个人好,至少一个人不用去顾及另一个人的感受,至少受过的伤,自己承担,喜怒哀乐,自己负责。

至少这一切的一切,一个人不必向任何人交代。

一个人,偶尔很好。。

虚伪的世界

虚伪的世界里,有应有尽有的人,善良的外表,天真的性格,无知的头脑。。当你进一步踏入他们的世界的时候,善良的外表,有着邪恶的心,天真的性格有着聪明的思考,无知的头脑,有着坏的心机。这些人,我见识过,你不得不佩服他们!
有些人,每次在你面前提起另一个人,他可以说的天高地厚,你说什么,他都支持你,然你也以为他是和你同一阵线的,这种人,是最恐怖的。因为,在另一头,他却对那个人献殷勤。
有些人,明明懂,明明知道这个世界没有单纯的人,却好像装作一副我不晓得的脸。当你劝告他的时候,口头上说懂,私地下却还知错犯错。这种人,有时候你真的很想一把掌给他去死。
这些人,我真的受够了!真的!
下次,我再也不会做劝告者了。没人想听,没人需要,因为他们比我还在行。我这个小人物,微不足道。
你们赢了,我输了。输给你们的虚伪,输给你们的天真,输给你们的谎言。
原来,一个人的时候,想找个知心的朋友,发泄一下,聊着天,是多么困难的事。
每个人都有烦恼,但不是每个人会撇着他们的烦恼,聆听他人的心声。
晚安。。

妈,我想念您了。。

考试期间

有些事，我很介意。我不说，不露脸色，不代表我不在意。天蝎的个性，就是收着，收着，然后有一天，忍无可忍地爆发。我想，此刻，真是我爆发的时候！此文章，没有针对任何人，请不要对号入座！
曾经，有个朋友告诉我，考试时候，对四周的事，特别敏感。一些你从来不会想要拿来吵架的事，无缘无故，你会想起它，然后，莫名其妙地生气，之后，发个简讯去骂他。我正处于这个现状！那个朋友之后骂醒我，说改次，考试的时候，千万不要理你身边的人，因为不知哪个人会成为你的出气桶。这次考试，我很安分。谁也不理，管他妈的不爽，我都一概不理。没人给我骂，只好对着电脑，乱发癫！


待续。。

梦

昨晚，做了一个梦。我想，老天想传个信息给我，告诉我，下一步怎么走。

一直以来，我很犹豫，到底，我应该选择什么样的工？一个自己喜欢的还是一个能帮你赚大钱的？终于，我知道该怎么做了。

我应该选择一份能帮我赚大钱的工，当然，我不会说那是什么工。

至于那份喜欢的工，我想，我应该放弃了。

这个社会里，要找份能给你很多钱，又你喜欢的工，很难！唯有牺牲一些，我才能达到我的目标。

还有半年，就要毕业了。那种心情，很能负荷。。期待又兴奋？还是害怕又懊恼？

昨晚，我哭了。我哭，不是因为我难过，我哭，因为原来连自己最亲的家人都不相信你，那么，不管我再怎么解释，结果都一样。

爸，我对您，真的很失望！钱，真的那么重要吗？那好，等您老了，不要怪我不孝，我会毫不犹豫的连一份钱也不会给您！妈嫁给你这个老公，真的真的，是一个错误。

我不会责备您，因为出生在这个家，我没有权力选择谁是我的家人。

最后一次了，我不会再为同样的事情，掉第一滴眼泪！

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外面，下雨了，

继续读书吧。

那些事，不管了。。

PS:听着宇田－雨是甜的

A little updates here....

A little updates here..
Well,now is week 8,a week whereby I need to rush my assignment due date,mid term,presentation,not to forget I have interview to attend since I'm going for industrial training for next sem!Hoorayyyyy!!!I'd been waiting for this you know!I'm excited to meet new people out there,get to work in new environment,events,concerts..gahhh!!I'm just so excited but I hate interview!Especially job interview!I don't know what question they will ask me and when I'm panic,I tend to give nonsense answer!Whatever is it,just be prepared!Since I had read so many books for the past few years,it should be alright for me to handle this situation..
Ever since my dad complaining about my temper,I decided to change it.Seriously!Thou you guys will doubt it,I'm changing slowly.Not because my dad want me to,but I just want to do so.I realised is a MUST to have a good temper when you start to step out of the society and deal with people.And now,in order to survive in cruel world,there's one principle that I keep reminding myself-Have a good manner!No matter what you do,if you respect people,eventually people will respect you back and look up on you.Manner is important!
And as you know there's a conflict happened among course mates,turn out I don't care anymore.When my friend keep telling me how she's being ignored by another person,although I cared that person as well,I just told my friend don't bother anymore. I told her let her be,if she want stay with us,she will,if don't,then let her be,no point keep forcing her to stay with us.I really reach the level whereby I don't care anymore!C'mon,is 2013!I don't live in past anymore,I just want everything to be peace in this year.!
And yeah,Chester See and Jason Chen is in Malaysia and I'm stuck in Malacca!Regret for not going to see them!T__T
Before I left,there is a song that caught my attention recently.I keep on reply in my playlist.

>>Bruno Mars-When I was your man

Listen to it.!This song is just damn heartbroken and make me tears..T^T

Chaos~

PS:listening to Bruno Mars-When I was your man

GDA & We Love Asia Concert~

Before I start,give me a shout out>>>>YEAHHHHHHHH!!!I'm now Year 3 Sem 1 student aka final year in my uni life.Time flies.Really fast.I can barely remember what was happened during my Year 1 uni life.Fun?Excited?Crazy?Or maybe all above.So first week of Year 3 student life is kinda fun.By fun I mean I get to see my coursemates,jokes around,gossip around and I got a job again!This time,it is none other than working at The 27th Golden Disk Award Samsung Galaxy!Are you fucking kidding me?I get to pay to see so many group of Korean Artist!Well,I would not said this event is huge as MAMA(Mnet Music Award).Since my friend only need two crew,so it must be me and my beloved friend.Others,nahhh....!Too bad~
So,let's the picture do the talking!^^

 Golden opportunity to work as a crew for this award!(One more job added in my resume)

 Goo Hara(Kara's member)

 Errr...not sure who are they...Teen Top?

 CN Blue performing~!!^^

 Jong Hyun(CN Blue's member)

 Yong Hwa(CN Blue's member)

PS:He is darn good looking in real life!!!!*faint*

 SHINee receiving awards!!

 Onew(SHINee's member)

 Doo Joon & Jun Hyung(B2ST's member)

PS:Can't take my eyes off Doo Joon!!

 Epik High performing~~~

PS:gahhhh....one of their member is effing handsome lorrrrr!!!!!

 SISTAR performing...~

 Super Junior receiving award!!

 KARA receiving award~!

Last,but not least,

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G-Dragon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS:Shout till my throat hurt when he keep on coming on stage to receive award.

His performance>>THE BEST AMONG ALL!!!!!!!

LOL!Ignore my crazyness over him! <3 .="" br="">

Well,let me summarized this two day event:
1st:All korean group especially those new group and some other korean group CAN'T SING!!They are all lips sync!!!Those who can really sing are YG Family,Ailee,B2ST..(Not sure about SuJu and SHINee as we left earlier before they performed)
2nd:Those girl group-OMFG!I don't know which word to best describe their flawless skin and their super duper horrible long and pretty leg!(Hyuna is darn pretty and cute!!)
3rd:The crowd is not big as the ticket is damn expensive!

PS:Our paid was cut due to our irresponsible attitude(I apologized for that due to our desperate-ness to see GD!) and I think I will never work for the company that hired me for this event as they don't provide food at all for us and expect us to work for 8 hours!WTF!
PPS:When there's good thing arrived,there's always bad thing follow behind!

After GDA,it's party time!This time,I don't get any job offer for We Love Asia Concert held at Sepang on 19th & 20th..My first time attending rave party and it is not fun at all.Or maybe a little bit fun at first and as you dance and dance and getting tired,there are no alcohol for you to drink knowing that they sell one can of alcohol for RM15!I rather lick my sweat!=.=!However,get to see RedFoo of LMFAO..Nice!*thumbs up*

Till then....
안녕~
 

一件事情

因为一件事情,让我看清了你的真面目。
因为一件事情,让我知道男人原来也可以很小气,很计较。
因为一件事情,让我了解到你的人格。
因为一件事情,让我知道你跟他是一样的，凭一点铁定对方的性格。
因为一件事情,让我领悟到其实我已经没有那么在意朋友了，你要误会,你要小气,我都不管,因为对我而言,你没有利于我,我不需要介意那么多。
发生这件事情后,才发现原来我那么大方,你那么心胸狭窄,真是悲哀啊!
长大吧，你不是小孩了。。

我有话说。。

何谓坦白？何谓诚实？何谓谎言？何谓情感？
看开点，我总是对自己这样说；
少理点，我总是对自己这样说；
放开点，我总是对自己这样说；
想开点，我总是对自己这样说；
少管点，我总是对自己这样说；
我知道了，时间原来能让我们分得更远。。

希望你幸福。。


PS:listening to Big Bang-Day by Day

....

One day,I was chatting with my friend.And our conversation is about friendship,relationship etc..And then I asked her,what do BFF means to you.She answered and said:"Does BFF even exist nowadays?"I paused for a while and think:Does it exist?If you asked me last time,I will definitely answer her YES without any hesitation.This moment,I silent.Then she continued told me,even 10 years friendship,there's still an awkward moment happen between them.
Her answer remained in my mind till now.
"Does BFF exist nowadays?"

PS:listening 21Guns-Greenday