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March 3, 2013

A little updates here....

A little updates here..
Well,now is week 8,a week whereby I need to rush my assignment due date,mid term,presentation,not to forget I have interview to attend since I'm going for industrial training for next sem!Hoorayyyyy!!!I'd been waiting for this you know!I'm excited to meet new people out there,get to work in new environment,events,concerts..gahhh!!I'm just so excited but I hate interview!Especially job interview!I don't know what question they will ask me and when I'm panic,I tend to give nonsense answer!Whatever is it,just be prepared!Since I had read so many books for the past few years,it should be alright for me to handle this situation..
Ever since my dad complaining about my temper,I decided to change it.Seriously!Thou you guys will doubt it,I'm changing slowly.Not because my dad want me to,but I just want to do so.I realised is a MUST to have a good temper when you start to step out of the society and deal with people.And now,in order to survive in cruel world,there's one principle that I keep reminding myself-Have a good manner!No matter what you do,if you respect people,eventually people will respect you back and look up on you.Manner is important!
And as you know there's a conflict happened among course mates,turn out I don't care anymore.When my friend keep telling me how she's being ignored by another person,although I cared that person as well,I just told my friend don't bother anymore. I told her let her be,if she want stay with us,she will,if don't,then let her be,no point keep forcing her to stay with us.I really reach the level whereby I don't care anymore!C'mon,is 2013!I don't live in past anymore,I just want everything to be peace in this year.!
And yeah,Chester See and Jason Chen is in Malaysia and I'm stuck in Malacca!Regret for not going to see them!T__T
Before I left,there is a song that caught my attention recently.I keep on reply in my playlist.

>>Bruno Mars-When I was your man



Listen to it.!This song is just damn heartbroken and make me tears..T^T

Chaos~

PS:listening to Bruno Mars-When I was your man

January 28, 2013

GDA & We Love Asia Concert~




Before I start,give me a shout out>>>>YEAHHHHHHHH!!!I'm now Year 3 Sem 1 student aka final year in my uni life.Time flies.Really fast.I can barely remember what was happened during my Year 1 uni life.Fun?Excited?Crazy?Or maybe all above.So first week of Year 3 student life is kinda fun.By fun I mean I get to see my coursemates,jokes around,gossip around and I got a job again!This time,it is none other than working at The 27th Golden Disk Award Samsung Galaxy!Are you fucking kidding me?I get to pay to see so many group of Korean Artist!Well,I would not said this event is huge as MAMA(Mnet Music Award).Since my friend only need two crew,so it must be me and my beloved friend.Others,nahhh....!Too bad~
So,let's the picture do the talking!^^

 Golden opportunity to work as a crew for this award!(One more job added in my resume)

 Goo Hara(Kara's member)

 Errr...not sure who are they...Teen Top?

 CN Blue performing~!!^^

 Jong Hyun(CN Blue's member)

 Yong Hwa(CN Blue's member)
PS:He is darn good looking in real life!!!!*faint*

 SHINee receiving awards!!

 Onew(SHINee's member)

 Doo Joon & Jun Hyung(B2ST's member)
PS:Can't take my eyes off Doo Joon!!

 Epik High performing~~~
PS:gahhhh....one of their member is effing handsome lorrrrr!!!!!

 SISTAR performing...~

 Super Junior receiving award!!

 KARA receiving award~!

Last,but not least,
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G-Dragon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS:Shout till my throat hurt when he keep on coming on stage to receive award.
His performance>>THE BEST AMONG ALL!!!!!!!
LOL!Ignore my crazyness over him! <3 .="" br="">




Well,let me summarized this two day event:
1st:All korean group especially those new group and some other korean group CAN'T SING!!They are all lips sync!!!Those who can really sing are YG Family,Ailee,B2ST..(Not sure about SuJu and SHINee as we left earlier before they performed)
2nd:Those girl group-OMFG!I don't know which word to best describe their flawless skin and their super duper horrible long and pretty leg!(Hyuna is darn pretty and cute!!)
3rd:The crowd is not big as the ticket is damn expensive!

PS:Our paid was cut due to our irresponsible attitude(I apologized for that due to our desperate-ness to see GD!) and I think I will never work for the company that hired me for this event as they don't provide food at all for us and expect us to work for 8 hours!WTF!
PPS:When there's good thing arrived,there's always bad thing follow behind!

After GDA,it's party time!This time,I don't get any job offer for We Love Asia Concert held at Sepang on 19th & 20th..My first time attending rave party and it is not fun at all.Or maybe a little bit fun at first and as you dance and dance and getting tired,there are no alcohol for you to drink knowing that they sell one can of alcohol for RM15!I rather lick my sweat!=.=!However,get to see RedFoo of LMFAO..Nice!*thumbs up*

Till then....
안녕~
 

January 23, 2013

一件事情

因为一件事情,让我看清了你的真面目。
因为一件事情,让我知道男人原来也可以很小气,很计较。
因为一件事情,让我了解到你的人格。
因为一件事情,让我知道你跟他是一样的,凭一点铁定对方的性格。
因为一件事情,让我领悟到其实我已经没有那么在意朋友了,你要误会,你要小气,我都不管,因为对我而言,你没有利于我,我不需要介意那么多。
发生这件事情后,才发现原来我那么大方,你那么心胸狭窄,真是悲哀啊!
长大吧,你不是小孩了。。

January 12, 2013

我有话说。。

何谓坦白?何谓诚实?何谓谎言?何谓情感?
看开点,我总是对自己这样说;
少理点,我总是对自己这样说;
放开点,我总是对自己这样说;
想开点,我总是对自己这样说;
少管点,我总是对自己这样说;
我知道了,时间原来能让我们分得更远。。

希望你幸福。。


PS:listening to Big Bang-Day by Day

January 9, 2013

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One day,I was chatting with my friend.And our conversation is about friendship,relationship etc..And then I asked her,what do BFF means to you.She answered and said:"Does BFF even exist nowadays?"I paused for a while and think:Does it exist?If you asked me last time,I will definitely answer her YES without any hesitation.This moment,I silent.Then she continued told me,even 10 years friendship,there's still an awkward moment happen between them.
Her answer remained in my mind till now.
"Does BFF exist nowadays?"

PS:listening 21Guns-Greenday

January 2, 2013

Memories in 2012 and a new year started..>>

Look back in 2012,start to realize a lot of thing has changed including me.I would not say that 2012 is bad,but at least I had learned some lessons,met some new friends,gain some knowledge that would useful to me in future,went through hard time,fought with loved ones and with all the things that I'd been experienced,family is the best one and the only one who stayed beside you no matter what happen.Let me sum up all the things that happened in 2012.
1st,I met a lot of new friends and all sort of peoples,happy go lucky,crazy,fun,kind peoples.I'm glad that I have them as my friends.
2nd,I lost a friend.A friend that I thought he is good and never lies to our friendship.Eventually,turn out I'm the one who stupidly appreciate this friendship while he just treat me as a course-mate.
3rd,I tears a lot.For no reason,for some reason,for people I cared,for people I loved.
4th,For all I'd been through,I hurt,I learned,I grew up and became a tough person.I told myself,next time,no more soft-hearted,no more trust on others especially those that you only known for one or two years,no more enduring sarcastic people.
5th,bought a lot of book regarding finance,investment,psychology,self-esteem.Books,the only thing that you can learn a lot beside own experience.
 
6th,first time sit on plane and the first place that I went is Sabah.
    
7th,went Bangkok with coursemates for vacation!First time spoke different language at different country with different culture.
 

8th,went to Big Bang concert and this is the most happiest thing in my life.No regret.
 

9th,spent a lot of times with my mum.As I grow up,I realise she is getting old and forgetful.She'd been suffering during olden times and it's my duty and responsibilities to take care of her,make her laugh,bring her go everywhere,treat her nice food eventhou end up she's the one who come out money and talk to her more often.
10th, got several concert jobs and the paid is high.Most important,the experience is unforgettable.
                


And today is 2/1/2013 !!!

My 2013 Resolutions as shown below:
>>No more living in the past,grew up and be independent!
>>Not care much on others.Do your own thing and let others speak.
>>No more tolerance to sarcastic people,fake people.
>>Those who worth to be friend,have them and those who don't,ignore them.
>>No more tears,no more hurt.
>>A trip to Taiwan with my family and close friends.
>>Smile more,Laugh more and enjoy while I can.
Till then,don't forget Life goes on!
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Happy New Year!!

Au revoir!<3 p="p">

PS:listening to Kelly Clarkson-Dark Side

December 16, 2012

Random story..

Everyone has something they are afraid of.Ghost,parents,tiger,lion bla bla bla.For me personally, I think the most scariest thing in the world is human being.You know,it is not scary to tear one person mask,it is more scarier to know the true color of that person behind the mask.I'd been investigating some psychology books,learning how to see someone's personality through the way they act.Well,I just love to study this kind of book.I will said that I'm good in observing people thou,but sometimes I fail.Or I might get mistaken of what I've judge. Jealousy, won't cause any harm but if the desire of getting something is too strong,it hurts too.
I have a friend.Let's name her as C.Her love life is very dramatic yet complicated.Not complicated thou,but she likes to flirt.When I first met her,I never knew her real personality until something happen,I slowly realise that she is not an easy person as what I thought.Honestly speaking, despite all the bad thing I gossip with my friends,I don't really hate her.I even thought of maybe because of her family background that cause her to act that way,or maybe she just feel insecure.In her every relationship,before she broke up with that guy,she will find another guy to replace the current one.She gives a lot of excuse to flirt.The guy is not good,treat her bad,ignore her,arrogant,self-center.She told all this to the targeted guy,in the end,they broke up,and quickly she hook up another new boyfriend. I know her trick to tackle a guy.But what I dislike is,why can't you break up first before you find another one?You said people hurt you,but do you know the feeling of betray by someone you love?You plays people feeling!I hate seeing someone go around and mess with other's feeling.I chose to ignore this matter after knowing the truth.Because if I were to care much,our friendship gone.She shouldn't told me her things to me and I shouldn't care to listen.After all,I'm the one who get judged and labeled as the BAD person.
Sometimes,knowing so much things is bad.
Story end.
The moral of the story is Don't just because you unsure your feeling and go mess around with others.

PS:listening to Taylor Swift-We'll never ever get together

December 14, 2012

Long updateee....^^

I'm getting lazy in updating my blog.Reason being because I got Instagram!You know what,every morning I woke up and every night before I sleep,the first thing I will see my Instagram then Twitter then Facebook. Facebook no longer is my priority in my list.Will consider to shut down my facebook account if only I'm allow to do so.
Before I start complaining, expressing my feeling, I guess this post will be the longest one.So, is ok if you guys choose to leave my blog now.
Ok!It's December!Finally came to the end of 2012, the end of the world. Everyone start to talk about it, how they going to die, what should they do bla bla bla.Personally, I would say "Ala!Nonsense lar!Please lar!Come On!" But,I didn't do that. You know when everyone posted the news on the world will be dark for three days with bunch of theories, evidence, all the scientist talk about it, it's difficult for you not to trust it!When my mum told me on 23rd we go Singapore,my cousin beside me said:"Hey,it's world end!Cannot go!!" I was like,stunned for a minute and told mum change the date to other day beside 21-23.Nahh...I'm not superstitious, I just obey what the scientist told us which is stay at home and watch TV.
Fine!Let's not discuss about this topic!Just for your info,I had gone through a hectic war last week.You know,never once in my life,never ever,I met an ego woman!I had met a lot of ego man,but do you heard of ego woman?Yeah!Congrats me because I just met this ego woman last week!
On 8 Dec, it's Thirst 2012 aka a rave party held at Sepang International Circuit and I was working as one of the ticketing crew. My roomate working as well with her bunch of coursemate. So,here's the thing. There's two cars following my car to Sepang. I'd told them to standby my house by 12pm sharp!So,everyone was punctual except for this bitch!As you know,I really hate waiting people and this bitch late for 20minutes!I called Tong to contact her and report her current location to me.But,she keep on say "On the way" without telling Tong her current situation.It's ok.After she reached,she sit my car.Everyone is waiting for her.When she enter my car,she don't even bother to apologize but show me that kind of 5 cent face!Hello!Who should be on fire now!You are late and yet dare to show me your angry face!The first sentence come out from her mouth is "NOT MY FAULT!IS MY SISTER FAULT!" wtffffff!!!I'm not asking why you are late,but aren't you suppose to apologize first?No manners at all!!Then,when back home that time,another pattern!Her parents called her and ask why she late.She answer back without considering I'm there,she said:"I'm not driving leh.I sitting people's car.She is waiting for friend.I can't do anything!"wtfffffff!!!!!Ok!I get what you mean,bitch!I will TRY to rush home asap!Damn her!After this,no more concert job for her d!With such attitude, I really feel like throwing my pad with full of blood at her face(my aunty visit on that day)!!AND,while working,she is being rude to the elderly.I don't mean to be harsh,but this woman got no parents to teach!In chinese, no jia jiao(家教)!gahhhh....whatever is it,now over d.The next time I see this bitch,I will pretend not knowing her.She dare to post at Twitter and scold people after this incident.May GOD bless you,bitch!
This semester,I don't like.Because it is short sem,everything was so rush.And conflicts happen when we do assignment.Haiz..I'm sick of it d.Already two year do group assignment and now come out this problem.Up to you people lar..
Recently,I'm getting closer with my juniors.Honestly speaking,hanging out with them is fun.Because they don't gossip about others much.Even they have,they only talk about those people that I myself also dislike he/she character.Maybe there's too much internal conflict happen in my class, too much gossip till I start to feel sick and tired of it,with the juniors I find myself very happy hanging out with them.I personally already the joker, there's a another guy who like to joke and laugh as loud as me!WOW!This is cool!
There's a fun yet true thing I wanna share you guys. As you getting old,seriously,every conflicts,every quarrel,it seems like nothing for you because you will slowly realise that you spend too much time on caring those small matter,eventually you will get tired.Is better everyday you mix with a bunch of happy go lucky people rather than stay with a bunch of bitter guard face people.People will not stop talking bad behind you.So,why bother?I know the moment I mix with juniors,hang out with them,there's a rumor going around but I choose to ignore it.What should I bother while I happily enjoy my life?Who cares!
To C,I think both of us had some misunderstanding,however,I chose not to confront you. As what I always say,people who know you,no need to explain;people who don't know you, what's the point of explaining?!
So,that's the end of my story!Thanks for spending time reading my story!
Oh Ya!My holiday start now till next year!HooRAyyyyyy!!!!!!!
Till then,........
Heart you guys~!



PS:listening to My Love-Monday Kiz


November 17, 2012

Big Bang Alive Tour 2012


Well,I promised that I will post about Big Bang concert in Malaysia..So,here it is!Cut the crap,as you know,they are coming to Malaysia for their Alive tour which is fell on 27 Oct 2012!I think this is the most unforgettable moment where I actually get to see my idol G-Dragon!Hell ya~!!!!
Basically the concert start at 8pm,but we reached there around 1 something..hardcore fans?Nahhh...I'm not like those fans who waited and camped two days before the concert..what for?After all,we just rushed in and find a good place to stand.Nobody cares whether you camp there or not~Remember,we paid the same amount as you people~Don't understand why those fans insisted to let them in..swt..
First time in my life,waited to enter the stadium is really killing me!Imagine you'd been waited for 6 hours and the weather keep on change like nobody business.Awhile shinny,awhile dark..WTF!=.=


poster outside the stadium~!!<3 .="." font="font">



God!!He impressed me with his beatbox skill!!Never fell in love with him before but he is really awesome on that night itself!One word to describe him-GORGEOUS!!

Taeyang~!!Still cute thou~!!^^

Last but not least,
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G-DRAGON!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!insanity overload when I saw him!!!!!!!Right in front of me!!!!!!Thou he seldom come to our side(Zone A),but he still that awesome!!!His voice,his stage..GOD!!!
*I want his Giyongchy cap so muchhhhh*

Overall,the concert is worth with that damn effing expensive ticket prices!!
BUT,I'm satisfy!^^

And oh yeah..Just finished watching one korean drama-Innocent Man..
Another cute guy I fall in love with..
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Soong Jong Ki!!
T__T
Why Malaysia don't have this type of guy?
Even there is,they are gay!!!T^T

Till then,
continue back to my assignment!

PS:listening to That XX-G Dragon







October 25, 2012

那些長大中才慢慢學會了的事

Found some quote that are very meaningful.Take some time to read,people!

1、有個好的開始未必有個好的旅程,有個好的旅程未必有個好的結果;有個壞的開始未必有個壞的旅程,有個壞的旅程未必有個壞的結果。不管怎樣我們都要學會面對現實!
2、不要把錢看得太重,錢可以使感情變質,錢可以使友情變質,錢可以使親情變質,那麼,可以使錢變質的又是什麼?
3、時間可以改變一切,那什麼能改變時間?
4、幸福就像手中的沙子一樣,握得越緊流失的越多,我們要學會適當的放手,只有這樣我們才能留住更多的幸福。
5、上天根據不同性格的人,給予不同的考驗,無論誰都沒有資格來評價一個人的經歷。
6、把所有的不快給昨天,把所有的希望那個給明天,把所有的努力給今天。
7、好的文章不是用手寫出來的,而是用心,只有經歷了,真正體會到了才能寫出它的真實情感,華麗而不虛偽,短暫而不殘缺,這就是用心寫出來的文章。
8、人生路並不難走,難的是決擇,一旦選擇了就沒有退步的機會,要堅強勇敢地走下去。
9、不要總抱怨自己對他人付出很多,而別人對你又不好什麼的,你要知道當你為別人付出的時候,別人也在為你付出著,只是你沒看到罷了。
10、不要看不起任何人,某方面不如你不代表都不如你,還有。現在不如你也不代表永遠不如你,說不定以後比你都強。
11、不要拿任何人的感情當遊戲,那樣只能說明你是個敗類,是個不配擁有愛情的人。
12、人生中有太多的過客,不管你有多麼的不捨,過客始終都是過客,總有一天會離開的,你要學會放手,別等到變成一種傷害再去後悔。記住:是你的跑不了,不是你的再怎麼挽留也沒用。
13、別總是拿自己的不幸來博取他人的同情,時間久了會讓人反感的,會讓別人感到你很齷齪,不如做出點什麼讓別人尤其是傷害你的人來崇拜你。
14、心情不好了,你可以哭泣,不過哭過之後記得擦乾眼淚繼續朝著你的目標走。
15、別人對你的幫助要學會說謝謝,別人對你的付出要學會回報,不要把別人對你的好當做是一種理所應當的,沒人欠你的。
16、遇到問題別總是說別人的不是,要先從自己身上找原因。記住,萬事沒有絕對。
17、人無完人,學會接納別人的缺點。
18、不要因利益和別人做朋友,那樣我只能說你很沒本事、沒志氣,這樣的友誼也不會太久。要么真心,要么就做陌生人。
19、不要去報復任何人,那樣只會兩敗俱傷,盡量用法律手段來解決。
20、時間會毫不留情的把一切毫無痕蹟的帶走,留給我們的只是回憶!誰也沒有能力留住自己想要的,趕走不喜歡的。我們只有學會珍惜、滿足和麵對。
21、人總在不知不覺中傷害著別人,同時也在不知不覺中被別人傷害著。
22、心情再壞也別忘記對他人微笑,還是那句話,沒人欠你的。
23、用行動向所有人證明自己(行動勝過言語)雖然要付出很多卻是最令人信服的。
24、凡事都有兩面,有好也有壞,有喜也有悲,是好是壞,是悲是喜這就要看你站在什麼樣的角度來看待這件事了!
25、“目標永不放棄權”誰都有權利去追尋自己的目標,不要在乎別人的眼光,未來是自己的!
26、人生在世最大的勇氣不是不怕死亡,而是堅強的活著,勇敢的面對生活帶給的壓力和考驗!
27、 誰都沒有能力去改寫歷史,我們要做的就是把握現在,展望未來,接受生活帶給你的種種考驗。
28、人生的每個抉擇都像是一個賭局,輸贏都是自己的。不同的是賭注的大小,選擇了就沒有反悔的機會。
29、敗給誰都不能敗給自己,如果敗給了自己,那麼,你的人生也就徹徹底底的敗了。
30、我們要學會適當的採納別人的意見。
31、人需要經常自我反省,善於學習,如果僅僅是在自己的固定方式下一意孤行,其實是挺悲哀的。
32、遇到事,如果你從樂觀的方面去想,你就會有一種積極的心態,結果通常也會是好的;如果從悲觀的方面去想,你的心態就會變得很消極,結果通常也是糟糕的!

October 21, 2012

10月21日  雨天  下午四点十五分

外面下着细细的雨
在忙着功课
一通电话响了
放下电话 开始哭了
对着电脑屏幕 哭笑不得
好笑的是 老天爷,您在捉弄我吗
伤心的是 我,可以去死吗
以为再也不会发生不愉快的事
哈哈 很好!是想看到我崩溃的样子吗?是想试探我到底有多坚强吗?

放过我,好吗?老天爷,放过他,好吗?
如果您听到的话,我愿意减寿十年,二十年,只要,不再去考验他,我心甘情愿。

擦干眼泪,戴上笑容,继续伪装。
可这次,能坚持多久?

October 16, 2012

还来得及吗?


心中的委屈,不是说出来,就有人能了解。
每个人都有他自己的心事。
我,真的很想说出来,真的。可是,我该向谁说呢?
我,真的很想用酒麻醉自己,真的。可是,有谁能陪我呢?
我,真的很想大哭一场,真的。可是,有谁能借肩膀给我?
我,真的很想放弃了,真的。可是,那我一路的坚持为了什么?
我,真的很想死掉算了,真的。可是,我还有一段路要走。
我,真的很烦,真的。可是,有谁愿意当我的聆听者?
逢场作戏的笑容,我还能配合。
但是,我已经不知道要怎样笑了。。
我还能找回我以前的笑容吗?
我还能做回我自己吗?
我能选择离开这个地方,到新的环境去发展吗?
我,还来得及吗?

我,不想笑了。。也不想装了。。

















听着:曾沛慈-泪了

October 5, 2012

It's October!!

So,my sem break started last two weeks.Already spent one week on vacation,now is second week and left one week before new sem start.Aiks..time pass so fast.I don't even really have a good rest.However,it's October!The month that I await the most!Why?
First,David Guetta Concert Job!


Truly speaking,I don't know who the hell is this guy.I only know everyone is crazy about him on facebook despite he is coming to Malaysia.
Then,I know the recent famous song-Titanium is compose by him.
One day,my friend asked me whether wanna work for his concert?Well,since the paid is quite high,so I accept the offer!

Second,Big Bang Concert!!!


After 2PM,the most wanted korean group I wanna see is them!The moment we bought the ticket,we are like WTF!We are going to their concert!!Hell ya!!
Unfortunately,can't manage to buy the RM588 ticket.It's ok!As long as get to see my G-Dragon,die die also I will go!

More to come,people!


Off to Jonker!
Till then,....

PS:will be upload some funny thing that happened in Bangkok trip.Stay tune!
PPS:listening to Justin Bieber-As long as you love me



September 16, 2012

坏人,你好!

最近,学乖了,学会了,学懂了,学假笑了,学聪明了,学不哭了,学坚强了,学成熟了,学想开了,学接受了,学放开了。
原来学会很多东西,真的会让自己好过点。
经历那么多事情,我想,除了我自己,没有人会了解那种被人伤了又伤的心。
恭喜我,谢谢我的心,还在。。
我的身躯,你辛苦了。放心,我不会再让你受委屈了。
是时候,报复了。。
好人,再见了。
坏人,你好!请多指教!

September 5, 2012

PissssssssOfffff!!

Recently,some of my friends come and consult me about their love life.They ask whether they should broke up with their boyfriend or not and bla bla bla..Ok!Here's the thing.From the story they told me,is obviously that guy don't love you anymore.He just played with your feeling.And you people still want to stick with him.Let's say that guy cheated, if you ask me what should you do,obviously I will tell you to break up with him.At last,you didn't take my advice and get back to him.For God's sake!Then stop posting those sad quote on Twitter or Facebook!It's annoying!
And to outsiders, Don't say I'm cruel to advice people break off,this is reality!And I'm just telling the fact and analyze out the whole situation.Hello there!Don't pretend to be angel and comfort people to get back to her boyfriend,you are adding more salt on her wound!So,stop saying I'm bad!I'm just doing the right thing for the sake of my friend not to get hurt!

August 20, 2012

Lesson Learnt!

I'd never really learnt my lesson from the things that happened around me until I fall down, I get backstabbed, I get hurt, I cried, then I know I really in pain. It's been a year since I studied in UTAR, peoples, things that happened here is really not as easy as I thought at the first place. For all what I've done in the past, I should learn to be smart and alert. Till something happened recently make me totally wake up from the dream and pull me back in reality.Ya,something that I'd never thought it would happened on him neither me as as friend of him. A guy who really close to me cheated on his girlfriend. He told me that he got nothing to do with that bitch, is that bitch flirt over him. I chose to believe him. After all, is just another lie, another story that created by him to make me believe he is a loyal guy. This time, a million thanks to him that I'd learnt my lesson!Thanks to him, don't trust much on the person that you knew for one year!One year means nothing!Unless you get through all the hard time with him or her.Secondly, learn not to care much on things surrounding you even is your close friend. They are not you, they don't care or understand the way you feel. For them, is just a matter of stuff they played when they get bored.
Friend Forever this two word only exist when you with your BFFs.Because BFFs is the one that take years to build up and not easily to break.


PS:listening to Greyson Chance-Waiting outside the lines

July 30, 2012

教训,来的太迟了。。

一个星期过了,那对情侣,那件事情,就这样过了。好像刚刚下了一场过云雨似的。男劈腿,女的选择原谅她。原因是因为她太过爱他,甚至爱胜过自己的家人,没有他,不能活下去。我只能说,女孩,别傻了。这个世界没有永恒的爱,就算让你遇到了,那也会是短暂的。他劈腿一次,就有第二次,第三次,你明知道,但你却选择沉默。值得吗?我不想劝你了。。
而我,原来都在逃避着这事情。我才发觉我失去了一个朋友。虽然说不在意,但毕竟是一年的朋友。
我想,已经很难再让我去相信任何人了,尤其是男生。你们的谎言太真实了,我不知道如何要应付。请原谅我的自私,我不想再受伤了。

July 11, 2012

诚实做自己有时候很难。。

我总会这样告诉我朋友:“你想太多啦!” “你很喜欢胡思乱想” “别想那么多啦!” 但不知从何开始,原来我也一样,喜欢胡思乱想。当一个人的时候,就会想起以前的自己,做过了什么疯狂的事情,说了什么狠毒的话,讲过谁人的是非,骂了很粗的粗口。
以前,很讨厌自己一个人,默默地,哭着,笑著,烦着,哀着。现在,已经不会再那么想了。因为当你一个人的时候,真的很自在,很开心。虽然偶尔会寂寞,但总比每天戴着面具来得好。
一个人,不用强颜欢笑,不用理会别人,置身于外,不用说话,不用烦着,不用看别人脸色。我想,我越来越喜欢这感觉了。
有时候,当我把心里的话告诉别人时,真的很希望有人会了解,为什么我会这样,为什么我心情会不好,不乞求别的,只希望偶尔有人站在我的立场想,有人和我一起奋斗,让这场战变得更有意思。别人只会意味着地怪你,说你的不是,杯葛你,怨你,但从不试着去了解你。


PS:给担心我朋友的你们,放心,我没有emo,只是想说出心底话。





“诚实做自己有时候很难”-魔幻力量《我是谁》

我再也不会是我自己了。。

我想,我再也找不到上课的乐趣了·这个地方,我不爱·这边的人,我不喜欢·我已经快乐不起来了·面对着每个人,还要強颜欢笑。真心的朋友,只有心里最清楚。心里受的伤,只有自己最清楚。谢谢你,S先生,如果没有发生这件事,我也不会学会,原来放下,我也可以那么开心。原来当你被伤得没自觉的时候,一切人和事物,对你来说,已经不重要了。哭过就好了,下此,我不会为了同样的事情,同一个人,而哭了。我不会再回去当时的那个我了,因为我没有在住那里了。以后,不要怪我无情。请你记得,是你,让我变成了另外一个人。我的改变,只为了保护自己不再被伤害。

July 2, 2012

学不会

以前,有委屈的时候,我都会选择写在部落格,或者写在日记上。但我很久没这么做了。反之,我把想说的话告诉身边最亲的人,但却换来他们的欺骗。现在的我,已经麻木了,被骗得糊涂了。为什么连最亲的朋友,都要骗?如果我的故事换来你的谎言,那么我能用我的信任换来我们的友情吗?已经在这个地方一年多了,本以为自己很会看透人,原来我还有很多地方需要学习。现在的我,已经分不清谁是好,谁是坏。因为大家都戴着同一面具。
朋友,这一块,我想,我需要放开了。不要那么在意,那么我也不会那么受伤。

小人们,你赢了!我输了!请不要再在我的伤口上撒盐了。。我伤不起。。




“总是学不会 再聪明一点” -林俊杰《学不会》-