no title..just for fun..

Tonight the moon is so big,so yellowish and so bright..huhu..XD

A letter to someone that I adore so much.

To:Fa***

Until when I gone,I start to realise that I not loving you or liking you..You are just someone that brighten up my life,make me feel that I'm not alone,you are more lonely than I am..
For me,You are part of my memory..Memory that can't be erased nor forget..
Anyway,I'm not regret..

PS:I love you..Bye and Take Care..XD

挣扎。。

直到今天，我才知道，其实，我爸是疼我的。。前天，我对着电脑哭了。。我哭是因为家人不支持我所要读的科系，我哭是因为我想到只有我一人被派到那么远的地方读书，而且读我不爱的科系。。去一个没有家人，没有朋友，没有亲戚的地方，一年只能回来一次，就算我再怎么逞强，我还是过不到我那一关。。当我开始订机票，开始接受事实的时候，我后悔了。。我真的后悔了。。
我哭着告诉我妈，我不要去那么远的地方，我不要一个人在人生地不熟的地方过着四年的生活。。妈心软了。。终于，她让我进私人大学。。但这半年，我会在新加玻工作，不想浪费时间。。昨天，我在烦着要怎么告诉我爸。。基于大哥的原素，爸很反对我们进私人学院。。他打来，告诉我，其实他也不要我去那么远的地方。。我告诉他，其实我要去私人大学读，只怕他会骂我，坚决反对我。。他问我，我有骂过你吗？如果你要读书，我哪会反对呢？说真的，他倒是没责骂过我，或许是因为我是唯一的女儿。。还好，现在，我所有的烦恼都没了。。
其实，当你做一个很难下定论的事情的时候，就算你身边的朋友再怎么支持你，少了那一份家人的鼓励，最终，你还是不能如愿地达成你的愿望。。这是今天，我所学到的一堂课。。

PS:爸，对不起，我误会你了。。

很烦啦！

六个月过去了。。直到我要辞职了，我才发现我好像喜欢上一个人了。。我在对的时间和他相遇，却在错的时间喜欢他。。朋友都说我见一个喜欢一个，我不否认。。因为当感觉来的时候，是很难拒绝的。。但是他们并不知道，在这么多我喜欢的人当中，只有两个，是我真心地喜欢他。。却因为某种理由，我必须默默地把这份心意藏起来。。这几天，我反反复复地在想着他，一想到待会儿工作会遇见他，我就很开心。。这就是为什么虽然我递上辞职信，我还想留下的原因，一方面是因为经理一直求我留下，我才答应的。。我不晓得我是同情他还是喜欢他，但我很肯定他是个孤独的人。。或许因为这样，我才想要接近他。。想说这个世界没有人是应该孤独的。。现在，我知道了，我从欣赏，到兴趣，到了解，直到喜欢他。。这些过程很不容易。。我很讨厌当我的桃花运来的时候，也意味着我即将要离开了。。哎哟！很烦啦。。一个人在家，就是很会胡思乱想!真的很讨厌一个人的时候..那滋味很不好受！

L for like,A for admire..so which one?

I think....I already falling in love with someone that I not suppose to...from admire to love..My friend told me that I'm just admire him,not love him..I think maybe..not love but like..How?

human human..

well...I got lots of thing to say..but I just don't know where to start and where should i end it..

WARNING!!

please don't read my post if you were a racist person..

I admit that sometime I had prejudices towards some dark skin people(you know who i mean)..no offend yeah..not because I'm chinese or what,I seriously don't like the way they acting,the way they handle matter,what make me most piss off is the way they dressing!!if you don't believe,one day,you go to Melaka Sentral,sit down there and watch the people there..they can wear a black shirt,blue skirt and green pants and walk around!wth!!come on lar,don't tell me this is fashion,I would rather naked than wearing like that..Is like a Christmas tree,don't you think so?although I don't like their wearing but it doesn't mean that I hate all the dark skin people!I don't have that kind of narrow thinking!MARK MY WORD!Recently,I told my friend that I admire one of the dark skin staff in our hotel..I admire him because he is a responsible person,I admire him because he is cool..I rephrase again,is ADMIRE,not LIKE!two different word..and they were giving me this kind of expression:"what??eh..you don't play play leh..you siao d meh?he is a *****,if you marry him,you have to wear ******,and you cant eat ****!!"wtf!!I was like..excuse me,I admire him not like him or love him yeah...can't we just be friend?I really don't understand what are they thinking..I told them,if i really like him and want marry to him,I myself will consider it too..because..if i do so...I cant eat my favourite BA GUA and BA HU d....so...people out there,can you all stop having that kind of mind not?haiz..I'm speechless..and yeah..one of my best friend,she is a dark skin people!and if I were to like a dark skin people,I don't mind what people think of me..as long as I'm happy..XD

PS:NO OFFEND TO ANYONE ELSE NEITHER WHITE SKIN NOR BLACK SKIN..YOU KNOW,I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!XD

回忆。。

你要走了，怎么办？我会流泪吗？还是我会把那份思念你的心永远埋在心里？这段时间，我告诉我自己，其实我不想你，我不喜欢你，我不想见你，我不想和你上网聊天。。可是，原来我错了。。
我想念你，我想见你，我喜欢你，我想永远和你有聊不完的话题。。
我很怀念我们在一起读书的回忆，你一副书呆子的样子，爱和我斗嘴，桌子下藏着我们俩的回忆，我最喜欢当别人误会我的时候，你永远都会站在我这边，我再也找不到像你这种不用我说，也能猜透我心思的男生。我喜欢你为了守护我的秘密，宁愿给人家挨打，挨骂，也不愿透露任何关于我的事情。。为什么你那么傻？那时候，是你让我相信，除了我最亲的朋友之外，不会再有背叛我的人了。。就因为这样，我开始相信，其实，男生也可以是个很好的听众。。你喜欢我吗？你是不是也有和我一样的感觉，因为你的好友告诉我，其实你也一样。。我能这样安慰自己吗？太迟了。。你要离开我了，这世界没有不散的筵席，只是已经出席的人还会回来吗？
你走了，我才发现，我有多么地喜欢你。。可是，你一次又一次地令我失望。。
这一走，也意味着，我会放弃你。。
别了，我爱的人。。

咖啡。。我的解药

认识我的人都知道我很爱喝咖啡。。从很久以前，我已经开始每一天，一天内喝三杯咖啡。。我不爱黑咖啡，因为我不喜欢苦的滋味。。我最爱cappucino，因为我喜欢它甜的滋味。。
知道我为什么会爱上咖啡吗？别人都说，睡前，千万不要喝咖啡，不然很难入眠。。就因为如此，我开始喝咖啡。。因为这样的话，我能借此，每一天用那多余的时间来反省我一整天的思想。。当一个人承受过多压力的时候，酒精或许是最好的安眠药。。但我不一样，我不会灌醉我自己，因为没有这个必要。。我爱喝咖啡，因为当我无助的时候，一个人坐下来，尝一口咖啡，一边思想着，那么我就会知道，接下来的路，我应该怎么走。。咖啡要乘热喝，因为当冷的时候，那个味道已经不在了。。当我心情好的时候，我会选择冷咖啡；当我懵懂的时候，我会选择热咖啡。。每一天，我都得承受不一样的挫折，如果没有咖啡，也意味着，我不能好好的去思想。。
那你呢？找到了那一杯专属你自己的饮料吗？

PS:既然爱了，那么我会用我一辈子去守护你，哪怕有一天你离开了，至少杯子里的咖啡依然留着你的味道。。。

给匿名的朋友。。

当我想你的时候，我会看着手机上你留给我的简讯。。

当我想你的时候，我会想起你告诉我的话。。

当我想你的时候，我会想起你对我的笑容。。

当我想你的时候，我会回忆起属于我们的记忆。。

当我想你的时候，我会回想起你看我的眼神。。

当我想你的时候，你的一举一动不断地在我脑中徘徊着。。

当我想你的时候，我会不知不觉地哭了。。

当我不再想你的时候，我的心也再也容不下你了。。

PS:当你想我的时候，你有没有心痛而哭呢？只想告诉你，我已经不喜欢你了。。

Definition of Gay..

PS:before you continue to read the article below,please be PREPARED..if you are a sensitive person,back off mann!!!OK,start!!

Well...to me...gay can divided to two type:PUBLIC GAY and HIDDEN GAY..

PUBLIC GAY

this type of gay is very obvious as you can see it everywhere,everyday and anytime..the way they behaved is enough for you to judge...I definite a gay from their personality..they look soft,politely,the way they walk..and then when they talk,their hand will swing here and there..believe me!then their eyes will blink nonstop..*faint*..and most important,you can't even differentiate whether they are actually a real gay or not..because some of them maybe look very very cool..but when they are with their partner,my god!all sort of thing will come out..Mostly,these type of gay,they are brave enough to express their emotion on face as they laugh in a gay way,angry in a gay way......I like this type of gay..because you will realise almost 60% of them is a good looking guy..

HIDDEN GAY

this type of gay best described as OLD VIRGIN!Mostly,their age is above 50..their emotion are unstable,they look disgusting as they didn't take care of their face especially when they reach the age of 40..and you know,when people getting older,they are mature enough to think..so this type of gay don't really show the characteristic of gay in public place..they are HIDDEN!!I personally describe an old man as a gay as they really hate woman,they prefer guy than girl,they reach the age of 50 and yet haven't married,and wear a silver ring at the fourth finger start from left on the right hand..example,my DM,Mr Steven..you must always remember that OLD GAY,they are very DEMANDING!!!!they are worst than woman..everything want PERFECT!!

No matter how,I still like gay because I think that they are more caring compare to girl...how about you?

PS:NO OFFEND TO ANY GAY OUT THERE...I LOVE YOU ALL,YOU KNOW~~

我受伤了。。

今天，我失恋了。。或许，我们从来都没开始过，或许你不曾对我有点眷恋，或许我对你的感情很不实际。。但是，怎么办？你伤了我。。原来，我还是喜欢你的。。

PS:보고 싶어요

this world is sucks with this people!!!

Why cant people think things from the positive side instead of negative side?why everyone think that a person who score good result in their study is a very clever person?why everyone think that if you study form 6,you will be able to enter local university?and why do they think about those who fail their result,they would not able to continue study unless their family is rich enough to send them to oversea or let them study in college?I really don’t understand why nowadays people thinking is getting narrow and narrow?sometime,I getting fed up with this people…stpm results just came out few days ago..on that day,my phone ring nonstop,miss call,message..you know what?i never reply any one of them..i very piss off seriously..my aunty who never contact me before,suddenly call me and ask me what’s my result?wtf!!realistic siul!!!everyone just bother that piece of paper,how many A’s u get,what’s ur pointer,bla bla bla..but do they really care or know that how much we student put a lot of effort on it not?how much I spent my time to study my econs or business just to hope that I will get good result on it?NO!!!no one bother!!if you don’t bother,then stop asking me what’s my result!!now I tell you all,I get 3.0!!

econs 3.0,

business 3.33,

maths 3.0

and PA 2.67

yeah!!look properly before asking me anything..ok..the result is over..now come to application to local uni…this is what I really fed up when people sarcastically asking me about it…my result is just nice for me to enter uni..I just apply only,doesn’t mean that I’m comfirm to enter the uni and study the course I wanted!!is it my fault that I try to seek for newspaper regarding the college intake?is it my fault that I try to apply scholarship?i tell you people,I’m a humanbeing,I’m not a GOD!i cant predict that what will happen to me…maybe the next second after I type this word,I die straight away due to too emotional..if my pointer is enough for me to enter local uni,I swear I would never ever searching for the college information!!is because a lot of my friend,senior,their pointer is higher than me,but why cant they enter uni and end up study in somewhere else?so do I..everyone assume that I 100%COMFIRM enter local uni..but do they know when you are trying to find some information not just for ourself,for our friend too,end up they just tell you:”ala,you no need find lar,you sure enter uni also..”I had been hear this from someone since I taking result..i know she is joking..i don’t mind you say one or two times,but she say more than that,if you were me,cant you endure not?can you pretend like nothing happen and joke around with her?everyone had their limit..is hurt you know when the friend you care say that to you!!she is right,I always do thing that follow my way..but that is just certain thing..i do care people feeling whenever i made a decision,i'm not a cold-blooded animal,i'm a human!take it or leave it!this is me!true friend would never judge you or angry you on certain thing,they will correct you and you will accept it nicely!fair?

PS:STOP ASKING ME MY RESULT!!!!!I ALREADY POST IT HERE!!IF YOU ASK AGAIN,I GOING TO BURN DOWN YOUR HOUSE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!!!

shop shop shop!!!

I'm exhausted..T_T..after my morning shift,went home and had a nap,after that rush to working place to fetch Tong and then....JUSCO!!here we come~~my god!!alot of people sial!!we were like a mad woman,desperate searching the parking and finally found one!yeah!!XD

ok,mission start!! search for clothing,went to Padini,Soda and bought some there..then,we went in to Body Shop since I have the member card,thought that got 20% discount..but..TAK ADA!T_T

I bought this perfume,i really love it so muchhhh..only cost RM 45..tong bought a face powder which cost only RM75..

and then we went to comic shop,i bought this two book and tong bought Sin Chan..and we get the free gift from them..

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free gift..XD

PS:I LOVE FREE STUFF!!

Finally,I use my own money to buy this book!!I want it sooo much after I knew that this writter,come out a few new book..book name~I still love you...

At the end of the day,I spent almost RM200++ for all this..and>>

I SWIPE MY CARD THREE TIMES WITHIN ONE HOUR!!!each bill cost me RM50++

*heart is bleeding*

BUT,haha..nevermind..this month will get my angpau money and my monthly salary from dad,and also my pay...so..lalala~~

I'm tired..안녕..

bla bla bla...

Today,wake up early in the morning just to attend the stupid training organise by hotel for all the new staff...teach us how to communicate with guest etc..during the talk,I was half asleep,half awake..wth=.=!!since I'm not paying fully attention to the lecturer,so I start to think what had happened to me recently..one word to describe me,SUEI!!

1.scolded by the GM's secretary for fooling around the toilet corner..

2.warn by the security department because we park our car inside the hotel which we workers cant even go to the place..

3.there is a pervert at my working place there name R..he is soooo damn lazy..I wonder how he get the GSO position!

4.everyday facing the China guest by asking this and that,they are so fucking demanding!!!

(yesterday a china human call me and told me that his room got mosquitoes!then,ask me what to do,then I say kill it lar!then he laugh and say ya hor!idiot!!!!)

Since my mood not good,so i decided to go to my bff house and call her to dye my hair..haha..ok,my hair is done..after that,we go to pizza hut and eat pizza!!!!yeah(since i craving for it long time ago~~)

I'm sleepy..안녕...*.*

I went to visit my bfff!!XD

well well well.....haha...today I'm extreaming happy!!you know why?because I went to KL and meet my beloved bff-Ooi and her friends..hehe..Let begin the story with some nice picture here.

1st...me,tong and yt reach at Pudu and met Pui there..and then we went to eat KFC as our breakfast...

outside the KFC,see the two thing on top of my head is interesting...so..haha..

and then when ooi reach there,she bring us go to eat Pepper Lunch...we walk all the way from Pudu to Pavillion just to eat the lunch..since ooi strongly recommend,so ma golor..give her face..hehe..but is nice!and is not expensive..only cost us about RM14..worth it!!

pui and tong order Salmon Rice...

yt order Onagi Rice..

me order Chicken Rice..with egg..

ooi order Beef Rice..

Look!how happy she is when she get to eat her favourite meat...she keep telling me that beef is nice...BUT,i cant eat...due to the religion thing..T_T

Ooi tong come join us later..he is one of ooi's friend..very friendly and he become the tour guide along our journey...hehe..XD

he insist want us to take this photo..he say:"so that when you go home,you can tell your mom I go Cameron Highland"...=.=!!

me and tong crazy for the colour light..green represent ss501 fans...

blue represent Suju fans..

please forgive my uncivilized pose..lalala~~

husband and wife photo when back to oldies..their face is always look moody,fierce and sad...

but now..

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this otaku..even post also different from us...

is actually a store room..

High 5!!

the one standing beside ooi is Ooi tong...

I conquer the world!!!

this shop is really weird..they use the tiger doll to cover the model's head...=.=!!

haha...when me and tong saw this,1st thing come to our mind is take down the photo and show to Graham and ask him when he open a shop in Pavillion....XD

That's it..end of our trip..tomorrow back to work and face the China people..*faint*

Congratulation~~I love you..사랑해

To my beloved Ooi Lik Wen and Lim Chin Yean....

I would like to apologize for I what I had done for the past few days...I'm really really sorry for not replying your message and not answering your call..currently,as you all know,I'm busy working..by the time I came back from work,is already midnight...I'm really really sorry..I guess I just can use this as an excuse to cover my guiltiness ..

BUT I promise i would not repeat the same mistake again..I will TRY my best to reply your message if I'm not that tired or lazy..sorry ya...love ya always..muackss..XD

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back to my story again...you know what?I'm getting piss off with the China people!!!they are not only rude,talk so loud like nobody business,dare to smoke at the hotel lobby,retard and they are STUPID!!I can forgive your dumbness,how stupid you are but not stupid till dont even know how to use the air-cond!!come on lar,your country technology are sooooooo sophisticated now,takkanlar air-cond also dont know how to use!!I already teach them how to use,but they insist want someone to on for them,monkey!!they think our staf very free ah...ASSHOLE!!!!and I dont understand since their country is so IN now,why cant they speak English?my god!!everyday come to reception counter and say NI HAO..ZHE GE...what the...=.=!!talk to our malay staf somemore..end up I become the translator!!KNN!!!and then everytime they come,they want an adaptor..I cant give to each of them because is limited...and then when they cant get the thing they want,they start to shout at the lobby!!FUCK!!!excuse me,you think I produce adaptor ah ,where to find so many to give them..you imagine everyday 15 groups,each group got 30poeple,which mean I have to find 195 adaptor for them!!argh!!!yesterday I just scold back to the guest,come reception and shout at us!what kind of attitude is this!!STUPID HUMAN!I wonder when only they start to respect people,talk properly and politely and stop being like a dumb ass!!

phew phew phew.....cool down....XD

at least my mood recover when I check in some handsome guy...but..too bad,some of them are gay..T_T..why?why?why?

BTW,I want to highlight that yeah!!

CONGRATULATIONS

to

CENTURY MAHKOTA HOTEL

FOR WINNING THE TOP 10 MOST DIRTIEST HOTEL IN THE ASIA

is ASIA oh,not in MALAYSIA!!

PS:I LOVE YOU~~사랑해!!

爱不单行？祸不单行？

每一天都在工作，很闷。。不过，留在家里也无所事事，甘愿上班，起码还有机会看到帅哥！！嘻嘻。。

其实，这份工也不算差了，至少一个星期两次，有经理请吃pizza,mcd。。还有巧克力。。

hmm..除了工作，我还是一样追戏。。生活就是这样的咯！最近爱上一首歌，偶像剧：海派甜心插曲<爱不单行>。。要听咯！！

羅志祥~愛不單行

找不到人說心里的寂寞
找不到人都怕變得沉默
找不到命中注定在一起的人以后
很多人都笑我
一個人過生活

愛
只有簡單筆畫
卻比想象復雜
很安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍
卻還是沒能將幸福留下

愛
是不可輸的嗎
為何我還相信
她不是不欣賞
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我愛不單行別害怕



用不完身邊泛濫的自由
還是怕孤單是一種詛咒
羨慕我能飛的人為何在天黑以后
還是寧愿回到
愛情那個枷鎖

愛
只有簡單筆畫
卻比想象復雜
很安定愛變化
我愛過幾個人
也被愛過幾遍
卻還是沒能將幸福留下

愛
是不可輸的嗎
為何我還相信
她不是不欣賞
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我愛不單行別害怕

愛
是不可輸的嗎
為何我還相信
她不是不欣賞
我在等一個人
在等我的永恒
告訴我愛不單行別害怕

我在等一個人
在等我的 永恒
告訴我愛不單行相信她