Everyone has something they are afraid of.Ghost,parents,tiger,lion bla bla bla.For me personally, I think the most scariest thing in the world is human being.You know,it is not scary to tear one person mask,it is more scarier to know the true color of that person behind the mask.I'd been investigating some psychology books,learning how to see someone's personality through the way they act.Well,I just love to study this kind of book.I will said that I'm good in observing people thou,but sometimes I fail.Or I might get mistaken of what I've judge. Jealousy, won't cause any harm but if the desire of getting something is too strong,it hurts too.
I have a friend.Let's name her as C.Her love life is very dramatic yet complicated.Not complicated thou,but she likes to flirt.When I first met her,I never knew her real personality until something happen,I slowly realise that she is not an easy person as what I thought.Honestly speaking, despite all the bad thing I gossip with my friends,I don't really hate her.I even thought of maybe because of her family background that cause her to act that way,or maybe she just feel insecure.In her every relationship,before she broke up with that guy,she will find another guy to replace the current one.She gives a lot of excuse to flirt.The guy is not good,treat her bad,ignore her,arrogant,self-center.She told all this to the targeted guy,in the end,they broke up,and quickly she hook up another new boyfriend. I know her trick to tackle a guy.But what I dislike is,why can't you break up first before you find another one?You said people hurt you,but do you know the feeling of betray by someone you love?You plays people feeling!I hate seeing someone go around and mess with other's feeling.I chose to ignore this matter after knowing the truth.Because if I were to care much,our friendship gone.She shouldn't told me her things to me and I shouldn't care to listen.After all,I'm the one who get judged and labeled as the BAD person.
Sometimes,knowing so much things is bad.
Story end.
The moral of the story is Don't just because you unsure your feeling and go mess around with others.
PS:listening to Taylor Swift-We'll never ever get together
December 16, 2012
December 14, 2012
Long updateee....^^
I'm getting lazy in updating my blog.Reason being because I got Instagram!You know what,every morning I woke up and every night before I sleep,the first thing I will see my Instagram then Twitter then Facebook. Facebook no longer is my priority in my list.Will consider to shut down my facebook account if only I'm allow to do so.
Before I start complaining, expressing my feeling, I guess this post will be the longest one.So, is ok if you guys choose to leave my blog now.
Ok!It's December!Finally came to the end of 2012, the end of the world. Everyone start to talk about it, how they going to die, what should they do bla bla bla.Personally, I would say "Ala!Nonsense lar!Please lar!Come On!" But,I didn't do that. You know when everyone posted the news on the world will be dark for three days with bunch of theories, evidence, all the scientist talk about it, it's difficult for you not to trust it!When my mum told me on 23rd we go Singapore,my cousin beside me said:"Hey,it's world end!Cannot go!!" I was like,stunned for a minute and told mum change the date to other day beside 21-23.Nahh...I'm not superstitious, I just obey what the scientist told us which is stay at home and watch TV.
Fine!Let's not discuss about this topic!Just for your info,I had gone through a hectic war last week.You know,never once in my life,never ever,I met an ego woman!I had met a lot of ego man,but do you heard of ego woman?Yeah!Congrats me because I just met this ego woman last week!
On 8 Dec, it's Thirst 2012 aka a rave party held at Sepang International Circuit and I was working as one of the ticketing crew. My roomate working as well with her bunch of coursemate. So,here's the thing. There's two cars following my car to Sepang. I'd told them to standby my house by 12pm sharp!So,everyone was punctual except for this bitch!As you know,I really hate waiting people and this bitch late for 20minutes!I called Tong to contact her and report her current location to me.But,she keep on say "On the way" without telling Tong her current situation.It's ok.After she reached,she sit my car.Everyone is waiting for her.When she enter my car,she don't even bother to apologize but show me that kind of 5 cent face!Hello!Who should be on fire now!You are late and yet dare to show me your angry face!The first sentence come out from her mouth is "NOT MY FAULT!IS MY SISTER FAULT!" wtffffff!!!I'm not asking why you are late,but aren't you suppose to apologize first?No manners at all!!Then,when back home that time,another pattern!Her parents called her and ask why she late.She answer back without considering I'm there,she said:"I'm not driving leh.I sitting people's car.She is waiting for friend.I can't do anything!"wtfffffff!!!!!Ok!I get what you mean,bitch!I will TRY to rush home asap!Damn her!After this,no more concert job for her d!With such attitude, I really feel like throwing my pad with full of blood at her face(my aunty visit on that day)!!AND,while working,she is being rude to the elderly.I don't mean to be harsh,but this woman got no parents to teach!In chinese, no jia jiao(家教）!gahhhh....whatever is it,now over d.The next time I see this bitch,I will pretend not knowing her.She dare to post at Twitter and scold people after this incident.May GOD bless you,bitch!
This semester,I don't like.Because it is short sem,everything was so rush.And conflicts happen when we do assignment.Haiz..I'm sick of it d.Already two year do group assignment and now come out this problem.Up to you people lar..
Recently,I'm getting closer with my juniors.Honestly speaking,hanging out with them is fun.Because they don't gossip about others much.Even they have,they only talk about those people that I myself also dislike he/she character.Maybe there's too much internal conflict happen in my class, too much gossip till I start to feel sick and tired of it,with the juniors I find myself very happy hanging out with them.I personally already the joker, there's a another guy who like to joke and laugh as loud as me!WOW!This is cool!
There's a fun yet true thing I wanna share you guys. As you getting old,seriously,every conflicts,every quarrel,it seems like nothing for you because you will slowly realise that you spend too much time on caring those small matter,eventually you will get tired.Is better everyday you mix with a bunch of happy go lucky people rather than stay with a bunch of bitter guard face people.People will not stop talking bad behind you.So,why bother?I know the moment I mix with juniors,hang out with them,there's a rumor going around but I choose to ignore it.What should I bother while I happily enjoy my life?Who cares!
To C,I think both of us had some misunderstanding,however,I chose not to confront you. As what I always say,people who know you,no need to explain;people who don't know you, what's the point of explaining?!
So,that's the end of my story!Thanks for spending time reading my story!
Oh Ya!My holiday start now till next year!HooRAyyyyyy!!!!!!!
Till then,........
Heart you guys~!
PS:listening to My Love-Monday Kiz
November 17, 2012
Big Bang Alive Tour 2012
Basically the concert start at 8pm,but we reached there around 1 something..hardcore fans?Nahhh...I'm not like those fans who waited and camped two days before the concert..what for?After all,we just rushed in and find a good place to stand.Nobody cares whether you camp there or not~Remember,we paid the same amount as you people~Don't understand why those fans insisted to let them in..swt..
First time in my life,waited to enter the stadium is really killing me!Imagine you'd been waited for 6 hours and the weather keep on change like nobody business.Awhile shinny,awhile dark..WTF!=.=
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| God!!He impressed me with his beatbox skill!!Never fell in love with him before but he is really awesome on that night itself!One word to describe him-GORGEOUS!! |
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| T__T Why Malaysia don't have this type of guy? Even there is,they are gay!!!T^T Till then, continue back to my assignment! PS:listening to That XX-G Dragon |
October 25, 2012
October 21, 2012
October 16, 2012
还来得及吗？
心中的委屈，不是说出来，就有人能了解。
每个人都有他自己的心事。
我，真的很想说出来，真的。可是，我该向谁说呢？
我，真的很想用酒麻醉自己，真的。可是，有谁能陪我呢？
我，真的很想大哭一场，真的。可是，有谁能借肩膀给我？
我，真的很想放弃了，真的。可是，那我一路的坚持为了什么？
我，真的很想死掉算了，真的。可是，我还有一段路要走。
我，真的很烦，真的。可是，有谁愿意当我的聆听者？
逢场作戏的笑容，我还能配合。
但是，我已经不知道要怎样笑了。。
我还能找回我以前的笑容吗？
我还能做回我自己吗？
我能选择离开这个地方，到新的环境去发展吗？
我，还来得及吗？
我，不想笑了。。也不想装了。。
听着：曾沛慈－泪了
October 5, 2012
It's October!!
So,my sem break started last two weeks.Already spent one week on vacation,now is second week and left one week before new sem start.Aiks..time pass so fast.I don't even really have a good rest.However,it's October!The month that I await the most!Why?
First,David Guetta Concert Job!
Truly speaking,I don't know who the hell is this guy.I only know everyone is crazy about him on facebook despite he is coming to Malaysia.
Then,I know the recent famous song-Titanium is compose by him.
One day,my friend asked me whether wanna work for his concert?Well,since the paid is quite high,so I accept the offer!
Second,Big Bang Concert!!!
After 2PM,the most wanted korean group I wanna see is them!The moment we bought the ticket,we are like WTF!We are going to their concert!!Hell ya!!
Unfortunately,can't manage to buy the RM588 ticket.It's ok!As long as get to see my G-Dragon,die die also I will go!
More to come,people!
Off to Jonker!
Till then,....
PS:will be upload some funny thing that happened in Bangkok trip.Stay tune!
PPS:listening to Justin Bieber-As long as you love me
September 16, 2012
坏人，你好!
最近，学乖了,学会了,学懂了,学假笑了，学聪明了,学不哭了，学坚强了，学成熟了,学想开了,学接受了,学放开了。
原来学会很多东西,真的会让自己好过点。
经历那么多事情,我想,除了我自己,没有人会了解那种被人伤了又伤的心。
恭喜我,谢谢我的心,还在。。
我的身躯,你辛苦了。放心，我不会再让你受委屈了。
是时候，报复了。。
好人,再见了。
坏人，你好!请多指教!
September 5, 2012
PissssssssOfffff!!
Recently,some of my friends come and consult me about their love life.They ask whether they should broke up with their boyfriend or not and bla bla bla..Ok!Here's the thing.From the story they told me,is obviously that guy don't love you anymore.He just played with your feeling.And you people still want to stick with him.Let's say that guy cheated, if you ask me what should you do,obviously I will tell you to break up with him.At last,you didn't take my advice and get back to him.For God's sake!Then stop posting those sad quote on Twitter or Facebook!It's annoying!
And to outsiders, Don't say I'm cruel to advice people break off,this is reality!And I'm just telling the fact and analyze out the whole situation.Hello there!Don't pretend to be angel and comfort people to get back to her boyfriend,you are adding more salt on her wound!So,stop saying I'm bad!I'm just doing the right thing for the sake of my friend not to get hurt!
August 20, 2012
Lesson Learnt!
I'd never really learnt my lesson from the things that happened around me until I fall down, I get backstabbed, I get hurt, I cried, then I know I really in pain. It's been a year since I studied in UTAR, peoples, things that happened here is really not as easy as I thought at the first place. For all what I've done in the past, I should learn to be smart and alert. Till something happened recently make me totally wake up from the dream and pull me back in reality.Ya,something that I'd never thought it would happened on him neither me as as friend of him. A guy who really close to me cheated on his girlfriend. He told me that he got nothing to do with that bitch, is that bitch flirt over him. I chose to believe him. After all, is just another lie, another story that created by him to make me believe he is a loyal guy. This time, a million thanks to him that I'd learnt my lesson!Thanks to him, don't trust much on the person that you knew for one year!One year means nothing!Unless you get through all the hard time with him or her.Secondly, learn not to care much on things surrounding you even is your close friend. They are not you, they don't care or understand the way you feel. For them, is just a matter of stuff they played when they get bored.
Friend Forever this two word only exist when you with your BFFs.Because BFFs is the one that take years to build up and not easily to break.
PS:listening to Greyson Chance-Waiting outside the lines
Friend Forever this two word only exist when you with your BFFs.Because BFFs is the one that take years to build up and not easily to break.
PS:listening to Greyson Chance-Waiting outside the lines
July 30, 2012
教训，来的太迟了。。
一个星期过了，那对情侣,那件事情，就这样过了。好像刚刚下了一场过云雨似的。男劈腿，女的选择原谅她。原因是因为她太过爱他，甚至爱胜过自己的家人，没有他,不能活下去。我只能说,女孩,别傻了。这个世界没有永恒的爱,就算让你遇到了，那也会是短暂的。他劈腿一次,就有第二次，第三次,你明知道,但你却选择沉默。值得吗?我不想劝你了。。
而我，原来都在逃避着这事情。我才发觉我失去了一个朋友。虽然说不在意,但毕竟是一年的朋友。
我想,已经很难再让我去相信任何人了，尤其是男生。你们的谎言太真实了，我不知道如何要应付。请原谅我的自私,我不想再受伤了。
July 11, 2012
诚实做自己有时候很难。。
我总会这样告诉我朋友：“你想太多啦！” “你很喜欢胡思乱想” “别想那么多啦！” 但不知从何开始，原来我也一样，喜欢胡思乱想。当一个人的时候，就会想起以前的自己，做过了什么疯狂的事情，说了什么狠毒的话，讲过谁人的是非，骂了很粗的粗口。
以前，很讨厌自己一个人，默默地，哭着，笑著，烦着，哀着。现在，已经不会再那么想了。因为当你一个人的时候，真的很自在，很开心。虽然偶尔会寂寞，但总比每天戴着面具来得好。
PS:给担心我朋友的你们，放心，我没有emo,只是想说出心底话。
以前，很讨厌自己一个人，默默地，哭着，笑著，烦着，哀着。现在，已经不会再那么想了。因为当你一个人的时候，真的很自在，很开心。虽然偶尔会寂寞，但总比每天戴着面具来得好。
一个人，不用强颜欢笑，不用理会别人，置身于外，不用说话，不用烦着，不用看别人脸色。我想，我越来越喜欢这感觉了。
有时候，当我把心里的话告诉别人时，真的很希望有人会了解，为什么我会这样，为什么我心情会不好，不乞求别的，只希望偶尔有人站在我的立场想，有人和我一起奋斗，让这场战变得更有意思。别人只会意味着地怪你，说你的不是，杯葛你，怨你，但从不试着去了解你。
PS:给担心我朋友的你们，放心，我没有emo,只是想说出心底话。
“诚实做自己有时候很难”－魔幻力量《我是谁》
我再也不会是我自己了。。
我想,我再也找不到上课的乐趣了·这个地方,我不爱·这边的人,我不喜欢·我已经快乐不起来了·面对着每个人,还要強颜欢笑。真心的朋友,只有心里最清楚。心里受的伤,只有自己最清楚。谢谢你,S先生,如果没有发生这件事,我也不会学会,原来放下,我也可以那么开心。原来当你被伤得没自觉的时候,一切人和事物，对你来说,已经不重要了。哭过就好了，下此,我不会为了同样的事情,同一个人,而哭了。我不会再回去当时的那个我了，因为我没有在住那里了。以后，不要怪我无情。请你记得,是你,让我变成了另外一个人。我的改变，只为了保护自己不再被伤害。
July 2, 2012
March 31, 2012
我想，我已经很久没有写部落格的习惯了。有很多事情，当我无法告诉别人的时候，真的很想在这发泄一下，但是，却又很懒惰去写。最近，发生了很多事，真的很多。。于是，我用了最蠢的方式，逃离了这些事情。上完课，我只告诉两个人，之后，我就逃回马六甲了。我知道，逃避不能解决问题，但至少，在这一刻，我只想回家。回家的路上，我哭了。一边抽泣着，一边驾着车。已经很久没有这么大声地哭了。整个星期下来，我没有一天是睡好的，每天带着压力，害怕的心情睡觉。醒来的时候，又害怕，不知什么时候，会被别人捅一刀，又或者会与谁人吵一架，真的很烦！以为和我最亲的朋友，会谅解，到后来，又吵架。真的很累要去解释。我只想告诉你，我累了。不想和你继续吵下去，每次吵架，你永远都认为自己是对的，又不要改掉你那公主病，这样下去，做朋友也没意思。每次都是我，低声下气跟你说对不起，却从来没听你说抱歉。我的忍耐也有限度的。连最基本的信任，你都没有，那何必迁就彼此来维持这段友谊呢？算了。。
还有你们这一班小人，别以为我不知道你在我背后做了什么，别以为我看起来那么好欺负，不出声，不代表我不会做任何报复，我只是等着最好的时机，一次过，还给你们。。
等着瞧吧！
还有你们这一班小人，别以为我不知道你在我背后做了什么，别以为我看起来那么好欺负，不出声，不代表我不会做任何报复，我只是等着最好的时机，一次过，还给你们。。
等着瞧吧！
February 25, 2012
There's a thing call MARRIAGE..
You know there's a strange thing where people has the same age with you is getting married!And this thing happened almost everyday.Everyday,I heard my friend say: " Hey, you know who who is getting married?"First came across my mind is: Did she pregnant?But I never thought that actually all of us are getting older.Not to mention that I'm actually 22 years old!Fuck yeah!
Some of my friends married at the age of 20 and now have two or three kids and they live happily after!puiks~HAPPILY EVER AFTER?I doubt that!I don't believe there's a thing in this world call FOREVER!
You won't be forever young,you won't be forever smart,you won't be forever a kid to your parents.Nothing in this world is last forever!So,if you were in a relationship,never told your partner,I LOVE YOU forever,is just a bullshit.If love is forever,why there's exist a word call AFFAIR?and why there are third party in a married life?
I like being single SOMETIMES. I don't have to worry about money,friends,time etc..
My male friends always come and told me their problem with their girlfriend.Yet I had to tell them don't worry,it's gonna be fine.
Fine?I don't think so.Some already dating for 5 years,maybe they don't realize,actually their relationship is getting meaningless.No more surprise,no more common topic,no one willing do move the first step and no more sweetness when they first met.All they have is RESPONSIBILITY.
That's why I always told my friend that I will have second or third marriage in my life.Not because I don't love him but because I knew that one day we are more suitable to become friends rather than husband and wife.He might be sick of my attitude and I might be hate him for being too nice to me.
You have to let go in order to grab a new one which are not really nice to you but he loves you.
So just go on and enjoy your love triangle~
PS:listening to Adele-Someone like you
January 6, 2012
Random..
Various song to recommend this week:
1st: Vanness Wu ft Ryan Tedder-Is this All
Download: >Link<
2nd: 梁文音 孩子
Download: >Link<
My all time favourite（damn love the lyrics)
谢佳见－谢谢寂寞
Download:>Link<
♪♪♪最后还是要谢谢你寂寞 混乱的思绪终于能放空♪♪♪
PS:listening to Se7en-와줘
PPS:I'm going to rot sooner or later staying at home do nothing!
January 5, 2012
Happy 2012!
It's 2012!
Live you life,enjoy the precious moment with your friends and family!
Live no regret as this might be the end of the world!
Stay tuned for the upcoming post!
Chaos! <3
December 26, 2011
我不管了！
主动久了，你就会累。累了，你就会对你四周围的人和事物感到很反感。到你真的反感到一种地步，你就会开始把自己藏起来。你不想人家找到你，但你又渴望别人知道你的藏处。人就是那么地犯贱。
你们这些人，我不管了。
“Don't trust too much,don't hope too much and don't love too much.Because that TOO MUCH can hurt you so much!”
一点都没错！那个太多让我变得很堕落！
陪我的叫寂寞，陪你的叫什么？
PS:听着谢佳见－谢谢寂寞
December 22, 2011
Guys with a sexy voice
Know why women are so in love with Bruno Mars?He is not handsome,he is not fair,he has a darker skin yet everyone love him!It's easy,because he had the voice that not every men had it.Heavy+sad!Give him a bad lyrics and poor melody,he can manage to sing it well too~!
Heart melted when I listened to this~!T_T
(I would marry the guy if he sing this song in front of me!XD)
Anyway,I'm obsess with this guy recently-Tanner Patrick
Another youtube artist with a nice voice and good looking face!!
Another Sam Tsui!
Guys,
It doesn't matter if you are ugly,at least you have a good personality.
If you don't have a good personality,it's ok because you have a good voice.
If you don't have both,I suggest you better go for surgery.
There's no point you live in this world with an ugly face,bad attitude and a horrible voice!
XD
Au revoir <3
PS:listening to Bruno Mars-It will rain!