一日，带着妈去吃午餐，由于地方有限，所以就跟人家同坐一桌。同桌的是一位六十出头的老人家，我一坐下，他就滔滔不绝地告诉我很多事情，谈到我国政府的时候，他越说越气，听着听着，他老人家告诉我一句，让我不得拍手赞同。他说：“现今的社会，有钱有感情，没钱没感情！”对啊。现在的社会不如以前了，现今的社会残酷现实，势力名利看太重，一点人情味都没了。昔日的亲情，友情，爱情，变得仅一文不值。
最近，爱上两首歌，一直重复地听，简直听进心头去。

“早该知道泡沫  一触就破
就像已伤的心  不腾折磨..”-泡沫 by GEM

“哎哟 哎哟 哎哟 哎哟 哎哟 哎哟
你说你说 我们要不要在一起.." 我要我们在一起 by 范晓萱(萧闳仁版本)


累了，去睡。。晚安~


PS:listening to Jason Mraz-I'm Yours

Some people,you thought that they will come in your life and stay with you forever.

Some people,you thought that they are just a stranger for you and leave with you afterwards.

Somehow, the one you thought will leave you, they just stay forever in your life.

Somehow, the one you thought will stay beside you, they just leave without acknowledging you.

Life is like doing an experiment,you never know the conclusion until you see through the process and analyze data.

Those philosopher always teach us to appreciate the people around us,love them, but they never teach us the feeling of hurt when you don't feel appreciated and loved.

Therefore,love yourself more because you will never meet a person like you in the next decade.

花漾

一部很有意思的电影－花漾

电影叙述着一对姐妹对爱情有不一样的看法

姐姐相信真爱的存在，妹妹不相信爱情

故事最后，因为某些事情，姐姐不再相信爱情，而妹妹最终被一个一直深爱她的男人救活

这意味着，一个人再怎么相信爱情，终究会被自己深爱的男人伤得伤痕累累，而选择不再相信；一个从来不相信爱情的女人，终究会被深爱自己的男人有所感动，而选择相信。

爱情啊，你还真复杂。。

YOLOOOOOO

Three years of study had finally come into the end.I'm happy and sad at the same time.Happy because I'd finally go through this three years without failure of any subject. Guess God had hear my prayer.I'm happy because for all these three years I wanted to achieve at least 3.0 for my cgpa, I studied hard day and night just to make sure I score a B+ for that particular subject. Till the second last semester of final year, I give up. Is like an impossible task for me. But miracle do happen and I believe it.I get into president's list. Double happiness! Seriously,  thank GOD for everything. They do see my effort ya.
I'm sad because when graduation means you no longer have to deal with study, assignments, due date, tutorials etc. In other word, I don't get to see or work with my groupmates anymore. I think I will miss them. No argument s, no gossips,  I should be happy but then I don't feel any happiness there. Sigh.
Anyway, congrats to me and now is the beginning of a new path-working life!
Never really wanted to work especially I hate to go for job interview. Unless I got tonnes of money for me to spent, or else I have to work damn hars for me to get what I want. I want to buy my very own house at the age of 27, want to open a café at the age of 35, want financial freedom at the age of 40. Marriage? Shall postpone till I meet my Mr.Right. For now, I just want to fight for my career and travel to different country each year.

Today I'd read an article on FB-  

10 Things you will be regret if you don't do now!

1. Go for a vacation while you still young

2. Learn at least 2 different languages

3. Understand the beauty of yourself

4. Don't afraid to say " I love you"

5. Don't too concern about what others think

6. Don't continuosly support others' dream till you neglect yours

7. Contribute more to the world

8. Get more advice from your grandparents before they left the world

9. Don't spent too much time on work

10. Live in the moment

We live in this world by caring too much on what peoples say about us. So don't give a damn on these peoples and start to live our own life NOW!

This is what I always tell myself.

Till then, off to bed!

PS:listening to The Neighbourhood- Sweater Weather

再一次心跳

“只要我的心还在跳动着，我就会一直爱你..”

我想，再过不久，你会在我的心里从此消失。。

2014年了，要么谈场恋爱，要么单身，不想再暧昧了。

兰陵王

“有时你对一个人无情,背后其实是无尽的深情与无奈。”

                                                                          -兰陵王-

PS:我的四爷啊！看到泪流喷嚏。。T^T

我好想你

最近，很莫名地伤感，很莫名地想掉眼泪，很莫名地情绪低落，很莫名地去听伤心的歌。其实，这一切的莫名，只因我想你了。
一直听着苏打绿－我好想你，心中很莫名地，伤心着。那种伤感，我想你一辈子也不会知道。我们俩其实心里彼此都知道，我们都在玩着一个游戏。看谁认真，那他就被取消资格。结果，我输了，因为我认真了。对于你，其实我一直藏在心里，不想拿出来讲，但经过那一次与一友人深谈，我才发现我放不下你。我放不下我们的回忆，我放不下你与我斗嘴的时刻，我放不下我俩躺在同一张床上聊着天，我放不下你与我讨论着将来的路如何走，我放不下的，太多了。明知道你心里还有很多人，可能少我一个也不妨，你还是会继续走你的路，完成你未完成的梦想。你很幼稚，可你很爱逗我笑；你很随和，可我就是喜欢你那吊儿郎当的样子；你很没品，可你从来不说甜言蜜语的话，而我就是喜欢你的坦白。
我心里的话，你懂吗？你说你不想谈恋爱，但你说待出来社会工作，有了稳定的工资，你会继续追求我。你的表情很认真，我已经分不出你是真是假。我就是那么傻，我相信你说的话，明知道不可能，可我就是爱听。
现在，我不想玩了。我要永远退出这个游戏。我不知道你心里有没有我，但是曾经何时有人说：一个男人心里如果有你，那他不会让你流泪。一个男人心里如果没有你，那你流再多的眼泪，他也无动于衷。
此刻，我只能继续和你保持朋友的关系。


“我好想你，好想你，却不留痕迹。。”

Random. .

I used to update my blog everyday.But now I'm just getting lady to do so.I had alot of thoughts to share, words that I can't explain, feeling that I can't express. Sometimes I wanna write in my blog, just somehow I don't feel like turning on my laptop to write on blog eventhough I online everyday, I just..being lazy..
Gahh..have to cut off this lazyness!
Well, it's going to be the end of 2013, and a new year will come after.
And I'm graduate! Half graduate as my result not yet out, I still can't assure that I will pass my moral.Thanks to my friends who keep on mention that this subject is difficult.
Still, a new long term working life is waiting for me.This time, no more part time job, is a permanent full time job! Unless I found my white horse prince and get married,or else I will be stick on the office chair from 9-5! ! God! What a life..
Ok . Short update here . It's now 4.39am and I shall on my bed now. Good night~♥

无题。。

我想。。恋爱了。。
最近，正享受着暧昧的感觉。
可是，暧昧久了，那以前喜欢你的感觉，又再一次地出现了。。
你为人，很好，很癫，爱开玩笑，根本就是符合我要的条件，但是。。姐弟恋，这块东西，我不碰。。
可惜，我们没缘份。。

PS:暧昧让人受尽委屈。。

都市的爱情

 刚游览一些所谓的都市名媛，察觉到了一件事情。现在的都市爱情，就是不愁你没人要，只要你长得稍微好看，自然而然会有人送上门。现代的都市爱情，再也称不上是爱情了。因为每个情侣们，不是因为爱，而在一起，是因为他们需要的那份安全感，因为性而在一起。有一位名媛，刚和男朋友分手不久，就已经有了新的一个。才分手的不久，才交往的不久，就已经谈什么天长地久，离不开你，可笑可笑。交往的时候，po上网说什么你就是我这一辈子的爱，好让全世界的人都知道你们很恩爱。分手的时候，什么也不发表，过了不久，就有新的恋情了。我想说的是，至你们，不要因为缺乏的那份安全感而走在一起。没错，女人是需要男人保护，男人爱戴。但如果谨谨是因为那份安全感，没有爱情，而在一起，值得吗？我们也能保护自己，因为爱而谈恋爱，因为恨而分开，不要为了晒出你们的爱情，而在一起。我只能说，你们的爱情，真的很可悲。现代的爱情，女人就好像换鞋子一样，快又准。而男人就好像换衣服一样，一次就扔。
妈问我，为什么现在有钱的男人都不结婚，这样好吗？我答，为什么要结婚？当你有能力养活自己的时候，何必需要其他人？妈又问，哪老的时候怎么办？我答，就用钱请人照顾就好啦。妈说，总得要有个家，有孩子才热闹嘛！一个人，闷闷的。。或许妈说的没错，只是她不知道，现在没有长久的爱情了。结婚十年，离婚十年，没有人相信爱情了。现代的人，宁选着面包，也不会死死守护着爱情了。因为面包比爱情坚持得更久。。


可悲的都市人。。

今天，我想说一个故事，一个我没有告诉别人的故事。
从前，我有两个引以为傲的哥哥。大哥是个厨师，二哥是个律师。大哥做事鲁莽，永远不会想后果。二哥做事谨慎，我们从来不会担心他。但如今，我只能说，我，只有一个哥哥，那就是二哥。大哥早在他犯下大错之后，再也不是我哥了。我很偏心。以前我很疼我大哥，但现在，我只能说他只是一个熟悉的陌生人。
我永远不会忘记他说的那一番话，他做过的那件事，他如何用言语伤害我和二哥，用行动伤害我爸妈！直到我死，我也不会忘记！
你永远没有资格教训我，没有资格在我面前提起孝顺这两个字，没有资格教我如何走未来的路，没有资格管我，因为你没有一点值得我尊敬！我以前的那个大哥，已经死了。现在的那个人，我不认识。我也不想去了解。
你传给我的那些简讯，我会收着。一辈子收着。你说过的话，我会记住。一辈子记住。我会用我这一辈子提醒我自己，我只有一个哥。
故事完毕。
晚安。。

迷路了。。

我的人生好像有很多可惜。我有梦想,我知道我要什么,我知道未来我要怎样,但在你仔细地分析后,你会犹豫,失去方向,而现在我真的不知该怎么样。朋友说,跟着你的心走吧,但现在我的心也迷路了。
有没有人可以告诉我怎么样。。我不想去想了。。

First Time Organiser...

As what people always say,you work for a company as a intern,you were more likely a cheap labor.Meanwhile,you have to do alot of things.Especially when you are in event line,basically,from production till ticketing,marketing,A&P,you need to do all by yourself.As for me,I would not said when Lee Min Ho came Malaysia for his concert would be a disaster for me,but it did torture me from my mental to my soul!You know what?Organizing a concert is not same as organizing a corporate event.Artist is more important than those datuk peoples.One mistake you did,you are finish!Korean artist is not as easy as other country artist.Korean peoples are very typical Korean!Meaning,if they want something from you in a minute time,by hook or crook,you have to get them in a minute time!More than one minute,they will started to shout at you with their alien language.Towards Asian people like us who can't speak Korean but English,they don't even bother to talk to you.They can mix well with our translator as they are Korean but when come to us,they are like...you know?As what my boss said,when facing Asian,everything you say is NO from them,but for Mat Salleh,everything YES YES YES!

Back to my point,when Lee Min Ho came,well,is a good experience for me thou as I'm one of the organiser for his concert.I was so looking forward for his arrival,but the moment he step in Malaysia,there is where my nightmare begin.Everyday slept for three hours,don't have a proper meal,worked like for hell during his stay,communication consider ok as I speak a little Korean with their crew,run here and there during his exclusive interview,I'm more like participating in Running Man show than working there.I really salute with my short leg that had been exercising continuously without any break.

The worst thing during this event I think is when I already tired like hell,back to hotel just want to have a good rest and then here come my colleague snoring sound!Loud and clear!At that moment,cry no tears!T___T

Lee Min Ho,well,he is quite good looking and tall.But he can't sing.When I was busy walking around during his concert,suddenly I hear his voice is like OUT-OF-TUNE!aigoo....Whatever!I guess his fans wouldn't bother much either..And he smokes!A heavy smoker with all his crews!aiks...

Some of Korean crews is nice thou,when I at backstage to look out for them,some very funny and some quite good looking.There's a guy name David,holy shit!He looks like Park Si Hoo!My GOD!But he don't work for them,he is a intermediary person,a Korean,worked in Malaysia.

Overall,the moment the concert end is the moment my nightmare end.That night,I slept for 12 hours with no alarm!Feels good!

So to who ever wanna work at this line,please be prepare!Your life will be shorter!

PS:listening to Henry-Trap

突然累了。。

人老了，很多事情都不在我们意料范围之内。我也一样，曾经以为坏人是指做了伤天害理的事情，长大后，坏人其实也是指着那些暗地里在你背后搬弄是非的人。
人老了，渐渐地，从前不知道的事情，自己经历之后，才发现这个世界，没有我想的那么单纯。
有时候，我会怀念，以前懵懂的我，从不会为生活烦恼的我，从不会为了得到别人的青睐的我，逐渐地。。以前的那个我，不在了。因为我们都长大了，时间不会停留在过去。每一次，我都会说，人不能永远留在过去，一定要往未来前进。可是等我老的时候，就算一秒也好，我很想回到那个过去。无忧无虑，疯疯癫癫，快乐地过一天，那种感觉，真好！
现在，未来，还有漫长的路需要走，但是我开始累了，不想继续走了，身体累了，身心也疲劳了，有没有那么一点推动力让我继续前进？


我。。想家了。。。

Letter to a bitch named Y..

To Lady Y,

You know what?I wouldn't that angry or fire till I heard something from someone that you were actually complain about me.We two been living under the same roof for the past two years.I know sometimes I can be very annoyed especially with my loudspeaker voice.You wrote on your twitter,you told your boyfriend,I know and I tried not to be loud as possible.I'm sorry for making you feel annoy.But after these two years,I thought you already get used to it and now you complaint again?Oh GOD!Too bad you complaint to the wrong person and that person came told me the truth.When the person tried to defend me by saying there's another guy who liked to shout as well,you answered back and said HIS'S SHOUT IS FOR FUN,MY SHOUT IS ANNOYING.Seriously?Are you that dry or what?Friends who know me know my voice volume is louder than normal people including you!Just because he is a guy with a penis and you said he shout is fun?And when the person answered you back and you chose to ignore just because she side me.You really an asshole bitch wei!Can't take people comment then don't try to start off the topic,you will be the one who get the shit at last!
Second thing,I don't step on your tails and so do you.Don't make me let you get the payback in the end.I know what you've did behind your boyfriend.Step on me,screw you,bitch!
A little reminder for you,play your role well as a girlfriend and stop flirting other guy in front of us.You don't want people label you as "WHORE" right?So don't do it and mind your own business!

Sincerely,

Lady M

Sigh

I guess,I will be typing lotsa of words,complaints in this post.Lots of things,lots of stuffs,lots of thoughts that I wanted to share with you guys.Something that you may know but you don't really bother about it.So here it's goes.My new house at SS2 got break in last two weeks ago.I would call that thief smart but at the same time dumb!You smart because you choose the time when no one is at home and you break in and take your fucking slow time to steal our things.You dumb because hell on earth you stole my 5 bottle of 1.5 litre water?Seriously??Are you thirsty or what?Or do my bottle stained with gold so you steal it and thought of selling it to pawn shop?ASSHOLE!We already not in the mood and tired as we just back from work,headed to police station and all these human beings came our house at 12am to take the evidence.The point is,you take the evidence,then you told us our Malaysia technology is too SOPHISTICATED till you can't track any hand print or saliva.Great job,dude!While on the other hand,another one keep busy telling us how his son/daughter doing well in their Degree bla bla bla..Excuse me!I'm not interested in your family thing,I'm concern with my stuffs that gone missing,why you can't just listen to us and fucking carried out your duty as a police to catch the thief?USELESS!Now,two weeks has pass and yet no news about the thief case.I guess they just take it as a drama practice and basically we are the actor/actress with NO PAID.

Sigh.Next week will be the 4th week of my internship.During this three weeks,I had learnt a lot of things and basically from the book that I had read for the past few years,it did apply during my internship.

First rule,be fake.Don't reveal anything about your true self until you had watched them(colleague).First week of intern,I already can see everyone is faking their smile especially in front of the boss.The moment she left,everyone start to gossip her.Forget to mention,my boss is a lady,single and look not so young(old).You know,that typical lady boss's character best describe her.She lecture me on my second day of working.I asked her why we always bring the artist that is not so famous,she said if we do like others which bring those famous artist to Malaysia,then what's the difference between them and us?Meanwhile,she don't become the follower.She want become the leader!Do something that is unique and unexpected.Hmm...true also!
Second rule,white lies.Sometimes,you don't have to be honest.Tell some white lies that might help you to get rewards from others.No one love to hear the TRUTH.Lies can be a compliment too.I get scolded on second day because I'm too honest with the boss.At the end of the day,she throw me a lot of assignment to do.Proposal to be exact.Aiks..>.<

Now,I miss my study life.I miss how I can skip class whenever I feel lazy..But now,I'm not allow to do so..T^T
Another 10 weeks to go...Holyy!!!

PS:listening to Estranged-Linger

给你

致你,

别再对我好了,不然我会忍不住又再一次地喜欢你。你问我,为什么向我告白那么多次,我却不答应。我不答,因为我不知道你哪句是真心话,哪句是开玩笑的。那天,我们聊了很多,你说了很多你家人的事,你让我看到不同的你,成熟的你,谈起家人,你让我觉得,幸福原来很简单。我告诉你,我没有像你那么幸运,没有一个亲戚值得让我尊敬。你不语。
你告诉我,你现在只想完成读书,毕业后,找份工,再继续追求我。我不语,因为我不想谈恋爱,工作赚大钱,是我的目标,我告诉你,我要做女强人。
你让我最感动的事,是我告诉你,我饿了,你二话不说,到厨房煮了一碗面给我。那时候,我真的不知道要如何形容我的感动。
可是,怎么办?我不可能爱上你。因为。。你太好了,我配不上你。我只爱自己。。对不起。

Love is in the air~~

 

I'm kind of person that don't believe in love.I don't believe long distance relationship.I don't believe years of relationship and still counting on.I don't believe when two person in love,their love will last long even thou they'd been together for years.I don't believe that two person will loved each other till one of them had gone to heaven.I don't believe two person in love and can't live without one another.And by love,I mean girl and boy that type of relationship.But somehow,I do believe one day I will meet my Mr.Right,we might love at first sight,or our love grow from friends to lovers, or he might one of my stalker(just kidding),somehow,somewhere,sometime,I will meet him.God knows when.

One day,when I'm in love,I will make sure the love that I give to that particular person,he will receive it without any pay back.Because I believe,there's always one person have to sacrifice in order to make a relationship last forever.

And when we grow old,either me or he will leave the world.I hope I'm the one who leave first,because I don't want to suffer the pain of missing him and the memory that we once had together,become a memory that I owed by myself,alone.


PS:the above post is randomly written by the author with full of love.Simply ignore her as something went wrong in her brain.
PPS:listening to Jason Mraz ft Colbie Caillat-Lucky

一个人的世界

一个人,没有什么不好。但一个人久了,就会想热闹。
两个人,还好。但两个人久了,就会厌倦。
三个人,刚好。但三个人久了,就会离彼此更远。
很多人,太好。但太多人在一起久了,就会想自由。
所以,还是一个人好,至少一个人不用去顾及另一个人的感受,至少受过的伤,自己承担,喜怒哀乐,自己负责。

至少这一切的一切,一个人不必向任何人交代。

一个人,偶尔很好。。

虚伪的世界

虚伪的世界里,有应有尽有的人,善良的外表,天真的性格,无知的头脑。。当你进一步踏入他们的世界的时候,善良的外表,有着邪恶的心,天真的性格有着聪明的思考,无知的头脑,有着坏的心机。这些人,我见识过,你不得不佩服他们!
有些人,每次在你面前提起另一个人,他可以说的天高地厚,你说什么,他都支持你,然你也以为他是和你同一阵线的,这种人,是最恐怖的。因为,在另一头,他却对那个人献殷勤。
有些人,明明懂,明明知道这个世界没有单纯的人,却好像装作一副我不晓得的脸。当你劝告他的时候,口头上说懂,私地下却还知错犯错。这种人,有时候你真的很想一把掌给他去死。
这些人,我真的受够了!真的!
下次,我再也不会做劝告者了。没人想听,没人需要,因为他们比我还在行。我这个小人物,微不足道。
你们赢了,我输了。输给你们的虚伪,输给你们的天真,输给你们的谎言。
原来,一个人的时候,想找个知心的朋友,发泄一下,聊着天,是多么困难的事。
每个人都有烦恼,但不是每个人会撇着他们的烦恼,聆听他人的心声。
晚安。。

妈,我想念您了。。